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chapter eight

Alesha

When I came to, I was in a white, sterile hospital room. Amanda was by my side and so was my mum. That meant that my father was around the hospital somewhere. Amanda had to have told them what had happened to me and that was why they gone down from Welwyn Garden City to see me. I had a cast on my arms, telling me that the hospital had gotten a hold of my parents so they could treat me but I didn't know what else they had done to me. I wasn't sure if I was going to get pregnant from my rape like Amanda had but I was praying that I wouldn't. I wasn't on birth control as I had never been on it for any reason. My parents knew that I was lesbian so my mum decided that I didn't need to take birth control since my period weren't bad either. I blinked and Amanda noticed that I was awake.

"Bev, she's awake!" Amanda said and then glanced down at me. I smiled slightly, the first time I had smiled since I had been raped and it felt odd knowing that my body had been violated and I was smiling because I was awake. "How are you feeling, Alesha?"

I didn't want to talk as I didn't trust myself not to tell Amanda that it wa Piers who had raped me vaginally and I didn't want to start crying again. My eyes felt dry though and so did my throat. There was a cup of water on the bedside table and I pointed to it and then at my mouth. Amanda got the message and she handed me the glass. I drank the water greedily, draining the cup until it was empty. I wanted to stay silent even though my throat was no longer dry. I didn't want to talk about what had happened to me because I didn't want to have to relive it. I knew that I would have to if I was going to tell anyone who it was although I felt cleaned up so I must have been bathed by someone after they did some sort of testing on the ejaculate that was on me and in me.

"I'm glad that you're awake finally, baby girl, but I have to leave because I have work in the morning," My mum said. She truly looked sad that she had to go when I had just woken up but I looked at the time. It was a little past seven in the evening and it took a while to get back to Welwyn Garden City when there was traffic, especially from the part of London that Amanda and I lived in. She kissed me goodbye and I let her hug me but I didn't like the contact at all but I wanted it desperately, especially from Amanda.

I patted the side of my hospital bed for Amanda to get in and she got the message once again. She got in beside me but she didn't touch me. "It's okay, Amanda. I'm giving you permission to cuddle me," I whispered the first words since my rape had happened. My voice sounded odd to me but I hadn't used it at all for about seven hours or so. Amanda moved closer to me and she wrapped her arms around me gently. I leaned into her embrace and I rested my head on her shoulder. "Where is Azura and Lexi and Theo?"

"Simon's watching them right now. I let David go home after you got your cast put on at two in the afternoon," Amanda answered. "Your wrist is badly broken. I won't ask you how you broke it because I know that you don't want to talk about it."

"I don't want to talk about what happened at all but thank you for helping me when I sent that text to you, Amanda," I confirmed. I remembered again that Amanda had already gone through what I had just gone through several hours previously and with the same man raping us. That was a connection I didn't want to tell to Amanda at all until I was sure I was ready. "I'm kind of sleepy right now," I said.

"Do you want me to get out?" Amanda asked me. She was surprised at the fact that I wanted her in bed with me when I answered positively that I wanted her to stay with me until I fell asleep, which I did after a couple minutes of Amanda cuddling me.

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When I woke up again, it was daylight and Amanda was no longer with me. She must have gone home to care for her two children and to care for Azura as well now. I sat up in bed and I brought my arm up to examine. The cast was just plain white for now. I knew that I could get the color changed as it looked like it was only a temporary cast to bring the swelling down in my wrist. It felt heavy on my arm and it changed the way that I moved my arm. The movement on my left arm felt and looked slower because of the cast. I hated the cast because of how I got it.

I wished that Amanda was with me again because there was no way that I could prevent the tears falling from my eyes and onto the white sheets of the hospital bed that I was in. I hastily wiped the tears from my eyes using my good arm and I took a look at my cast again but that made the tears continue to fall. I couldn't stop crying and there was nothing I could do about it because no one was in the hospital room with me to comfort me. I felt so alone at that moment even though I knew I had Amanda's support for when I would get out of the hospital.

[] hey guys! Here's a filler chapter of what happened at the hospital for Alesha. Do you think she's going to get pregnant and what did you love about this chapter? What do you think is going to happen next? Bye until the next chapter!