The Rose In The Concrete

Chapter 29

Chapter 29 Kenny POV
   I woke up this morning with my phone blowing up, i don't even know why. I picked it up and felt my heart drop to my stomach. I was mad but mad wasn't even the word to describe my feeling right now. Why would she even post her and Lamar in bed together knowing i fucking watch ha snap ! Wasn't he just messing with icelee man , the hell is that bullshit! Me and lil homie was never coo like that but we ain't have no beef. But kanya bruh she was post to be my lil ride or die. I know I'm a nigga and shit and we not post to real show our "emotions" at least that's what y'all think. We are held accountable to hold in our emotions and act like nun happened when that's bad. I ain't gon cap i liked kanya i loved ha she really cut in my heart cuz ion even put my trust in people like that especially a girl so it be hard to even try but when you do and at the end everything just messes up that's when i start regretting shit and start acting like a playa. Females always say niggas ain't shit this that and third but really it be y'all females that create this fucked yo mindset for us. I put my phone back on the charger and just turned it off it's too early in the morning man. I flip the covers back over my head and went to sleep.
Lamar POV
Do i feel bad for messing with kanya i guess but i mean i have a lot of love in me just don't kno how to show it. Y'all prolly think i am a playa or what not but people just don't understand me man. I got up and went to my car thinking about where imma drive to. I grabbed my phone and ft icelee. 3 long rings later she answered. "What do you want?" She asked annoyed. "Damn i can't call you now?" I asked. "Shut up lamar we don't talk bruh get yo shit together then come back on my line but until then stop calling / textin me bruh!" Within those last words she hung up. I shrugged my shoulders and drove to Wynter house. Risky move but hey what i got to lose. This 8 minutes car ride i had a lot to think about what imma say, what imma do, even if i could get her back... i was out side her house scared, fuck it . I walked out and opened the door thank god it was unlocked. I creeped upstairs i ain't gon front I'm a little nervous just to see what she gon say and stuff but hey like i said ion got shit to loose. I stood next to the cracked door peeking in it just to see if it was a good time or not. She was sitting on her bed with her hair all out listening to music. She wasn't really doing anything but laying down. When she does this she be thinkin bout shit. I was hesitant about walking in , ugh lamar stop actin scared just do it. I bursted in and we made eye contact. My body felt froze but i ain't scared of a god damn thing so i walked up a little bit. I grabbed the chair that was in front of her desk and pulled up beside her bed. I kept a couple feet back cause she like to hit. I sat down and we were just quiet. "Hey" i said softly. She just looked at me with a blank expression on her face. "Can you speak" i said respectfully. "Why are you here lamar" she said. "I wanted to talk" i responded. Just as that last word slipped outta my mouth she started going off. "THERE IS NO REASON TO FUCKING TALK LAMAR!!! YOU HAVE CAUSED SO MUCH PAIN BRUH SO MUCH MAN CUZ I ACTUALLY THOUGHT DIFFERENTLY ABOUT YOU I TOOK CARE OF POLO I WAS ALWAYS THERE THROUGH YO BULLSHIT I WAS A WITNESS TO YOU KISSING ANOTHER FEMALE I SAT THERE THROUGH YO BABY MOMMA I WAS FUCKING THERE I LET YOU TAKE SOME AWAY FROM ME THAT I CAN NEVER GET BACK I SAW YOU LIKE HOW NOBODY DID I FUCKING LOVED YOU LAMAR!" She yelled. It went quiet after that,  had to take in everything she said. "You don't even fucking care bro then to go to one of my friends and lie to me" she said. She started crying making words she was saying carry her emotions. "There is nothing to talk about because the damage is already done i tried so hard with you and you took it and ran with it *sniff* i had so much for you the love i was ready to give you can't even be given, i can't love hard again... but it's ok though i thought you were a blessin but you were just a lesson" she said wiping her eyes. "Wynter all i can say is I'm sorry for everything i can't help the way i act man you just don't know me yet" i said. "Yet!?" She said angrily confused. "Well not a yet cuz we won't be fucking with each other anymore" i said quietly. "No love lost i just gotta take this in and go on about my life if you really wanted me you woulda took your chance and got with me" she said coldly. "I'm sorry i hurt you but you left me you the one out with a new girl and shit" i said outta anger. "Lamar get the fuck out before i spazz" Wynter said. "I don't give a fuck" i said tossing her chair back to where i got it from. I started walking out and i felt my the back of my shirt being yanked back. "THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM!" She yelled. "Don't our to hands on me" i yelled pushing her back. "GET OUT OF MY HOUSE AND STAY THE FUCK OUTTA MY LIFE!" Wynter yelled pushing me out of her room and locking me out. Man fuck her i don't even care i can get any girl i fucking want and I'm over here kissin ha yellow ass man fuck this bruh this shit for the birds .