Day after Day

Chapter 16: Sanity

Sorry fr leaving you for so long :( I am getting busy with school but summer break will start soon and I have almost finished up my exams so I thought of making this chapter a little more happy than the rest. Today I wrote Greek and I think I will have a good mark, let's hope ;) xxx

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-Peeta-

I hold onto her hand like the last dim of sanity I have. She is everything I have and everything I ever wanted to have. She can't leave. So young and so beautiful to leave now.

When I found my way back to the hospital I was in a big mess and I still am. My hair is full of leaves so are my clothes. I have scratches on my arms from the branches of the woods.

The clock keeps ticking and the time that goes by is not coming back. It never comes back. I sworn that If it goes to midnight, I would leave a letter to Blye that she can proceed it. That she have my positive answer on taking Katniss to district four, and there they can "unplug" her  and I will find a way to kill myself.

My heart is where she is and if she is dead I am dead. I have no one besides her and I left her for a stupid thing.

A thing that started from the Capitol. The old Capitol might have fallen but it is still among us, in our scars, in our nightmares... in my flashbacks... to show us that she won. The Capitol always had her way around and that was and is unpreventable.

I sob quietly next to her bed and looking at her fingers that are entangled with mine.

"Wake up" I whisper with the most pathetic voice I could form, "Or I will come to find you"

I feel something moving from inside my hand.

"Katniss?" I ask but I know there is no way it is her. She is dead. Her fate is to die in a horrible way. There is not movement from her delicate hand that is senseless on my palm, it is my own just my shaking hand.

A few tears fall from my cheeks to her arm, I try to brush them away but then I hear a faint humming. It's too low, lower than the air itself, that you could think that the darkness can take it away.

However is the most perfect noise I have ever heard.

I look at her soft and peaceful expression and wait for a miracle to happen. And then I see it. Just a few seconds after midnight, I see those beautiful grey eyes I so longed.

Instead of staying strong and bold like I had planned for so many days, I burst into tears, but I do not care. She is alive. With me. And I do not care If she will hate me for the rest of her life for what I have done to her, all that matters now is that my life is back.

She is back.

"K-katniss?" I asked and wipe my eyes. She blinks a couple of times and opened her mouth slowly. Although she cannot talk just yet. The only thing that comes out is the soft humming I heard before.

Like music to my ears.

The confusion in her eyes hurt me the most, but the happiness that she has awaken is filling me up and there is no other space for more feelings.

Although, the next thing I know is that I am locked out of her room and away from her again. One thing keeps me strong though, she is alive.

For the next few days I don't see Katniss but Blye and Mrs. Everdeen are filling me up with information.

Her state is stable. There is not fear of her going back into coma and, indeed, it was a miracle that she woke up.

I am as happy as I could be for her. I just wish I could see those grey eyes and hear her melodic voice.

And they let me do it after a week.

She is not as weak as I remembered her. She manages to sit up on her own and make a few steps with someone's help. She is gaining her old self back, slowly but steadily.

"Hey" I say hesitantly and sit on the chair that was practically my home the past weeks. Katniss sits on the bed and motions her mother to leave.

"Hello" she says and I smile widely at her voice. The first time I listen to it.

"Talk" I say childlike and a little teary. She is here. Alive. Looking and talking to me.

"Why?" She asks and raises her eyebrows.

"I missed you" I blurt out and she faintly smiles to me but then the smile dies. A sigh escapes her lips as she lays back down on the bed, "I missed you" I repeat like it will make any difference.

"You are not supposed to miss me" she says and shakes her head. She looks at me for the first time and studies my expression. I try to put on a mask. To act like I don't care what she is telling me, that I still love her and I will stay with her even If she does not want me to. But my expression is just sadness.

"Do not pity me!" she growls at me and widens her beautiful grey eyes and glares at me, like a wild animal that was caged for too long.

"I don't" I answer trying not be heard like I feel sorry for her because in fact I feel sorry for myself. I reach for her hand that I usually was holding when I was sitting next to her for all those days waiting for good news to ring in my ears. However it is the first time she pulls her hand away from mine. She looks at me and I know that my touch must be foreign to her. She is not accepting my comfort anymore.

"Why did you stay with me all this time?" she asks. Not emotionlessly. Not hurtful. But with something worst.

Disappointment

"Because I said Always" I answer and look at her, "I might have broken our always but I won't again. I promise to stay with you and never leave you, even If you are threatening to kill me with an arrow in my head, I will never leave again, because I am in love with you, Katniss, I did not waist most of my life trying to talk to you and then let you slip away from me. For God's sake, you are the one true love I have, and if I have to I will go through everything we went through so I will gain you again-" I start saying but I am stopped because I have come so close to her that I can count the sea of freckles across her face

"Can I kiss you?" I blurt out and she looks at me before frowning

"Can you?" she asks and I feel her breathe brushing over my lips.

The next thing I know is that I am kissing her

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