Hopeless : Sirius Black's daughter Book 2

The Aftermath

He was drowning. The water covered every part of his body except for his face. He was screaming for help. I stood on the shore. Every part of me wanted to help him but he was too far for me to reach. Suddenly his screaming stopped. He had drowned.

I could have helped him but I didn't. It was all my fault.

The house was engulfed by flames, everything was burning away. I could hear his cry for help but I had an aversion to fire. It triggered unwanted memories. Wormtail was laughing and as hard as I tried to push myself to open the door, the screams from inside stopped.

I could have helped him but I didn't. It was all my fault.

He was walking in the graveyard with his wand out. I knew he would meet his death but I didn't dare tell him that. As he fell to his death, I knew it.

I could have saved him but I didn't. It was all my fault.

"You could have saved me Miley, but you didn't, why?" Cedric asked. "This is all your fault!"

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry Ced!" I cried. I was suddenly aware of my body. Every part of me was throbbing in pain. But it had nothing on what I felt emotionally. "Make the pain stop!" I screamed. I could hear in distance a familiar male voice struggling.

"Let me in, I can help her! She needs me! I swear I'll blast this door-" he was saying. I screamed. In less than an instant the male voice sounded closer.

"It's okay Milla, I'm here." he said.

"Make the pain stop." I begged.

"I'll make it stop. Just hold my hand and trust me." he said.

I held on to his hand and felt the pain slipping away. He had taken my pain away.

I opened my eyes. Blaise was sitting on my bed in the hospital wing holding my hand. Ginny was on my other side too. I could see on a nearby bed, Harry was sleeping peacefully with Ron and Hermione on his sides.

"Thank you Blaise." I whispered.

"It is fine Milla. It wasn't your fault sweetheart, there's nothing you could have done." he said. Without warning the tears brimmed my eyes. I started crying real hard but Blaise took me into his arms and held me tightly. I let myself sink into his arms and let his presence give me the much needed comfort.

"Miss Black, you are awake now. There's someone waiting to see you." said Dumbledore stepping into the hospital wing. Blaise made to stand up.

"Don't go." I asked but he kissed my forehead and said,

"I'll be back for you, I can always tell when you are in pain or you need me." and left.

I turned to Ginny. "How is he?" I asked nodding to Harry.

"Worse than you. Which by the way is saying much. How are you holding up?" she asked in concern.

"I'm trying to hang in there. But I could have saved him Gin." I said.

"No. Don't blame yourself. You were locked inside an energy sucking trunk." she said. "If you need to talk Miley, I'm here okay?" she said compassionately.

"It is still raw Gin, I can't talk about it." The door burst open and a very worried man stepped in.

"Uncle Remus?" I asked hardly daring to believe my eyes.

"Miley, honey. I'm so sorry." he said enveloping me in a huge hug. Growing up, uncle Remus was all I had. To his credit, he had done his best to fulfill both the roles of a mother and a father. In this hug, I felt for a moment I felt as if he was both my parents wrapped into one.

"I know it may seem inappropriate but I need you to recount the things that happened last night Miss Black." said Dumbledore. I couldn't do it. I whimpered.

"No. She can't, not today. Look at her." my uncle said.

"Remus, I understand your concern but it would be better if Camilla let it all out at once." said Dumbledore

"She's in pain. She saw her friend dying last night. She's only fourteen years old so she needs to come to terms with it first!" said uncle Remus

"Remus-" started Dumbledore.

"No. She'll do it when she's ready Dumbledore." my uncle said putting his foot down.

"As you wish." said Dumbledore reluctantly.

"Your father was here last night, in fact he was the one who called me but he had to go on an important errand." said uncle Remus. It was comforting to know that my dad was here.

The following day Harry and I were released from the hospital wing. After that I went and told Dumbledore everything except the part about Rhine, only one thing surprised him. My efficient use of soul magic which he called,

"One of the darkest types of magic in the world. It needs to be dispelled from your system Miss Black." I really didn't care. Honestly. Dumbledore told the school to leave Harry and I alone. Harry and I, joined in our misery spent the next few days together, not even talking, just being together gave us some comfort.

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A/N OKAY GUYS SO THE NEXT CHAPTER IS THE FINAL CHAPTER OF HOPELESS. I'M STILL WORKING ON THE TITLE OF THE SEQUEL.

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