Hopeless : Sirius Black's daughter Book 2

Confrontation

When I came to, I was in Dumbledore's office. It was probably night time because the lamps were on. Fawkes the phoenix flew to my side immediately soothing me.

"Why aren't I in the hospital wing?" I asked sitting up from the stretcher I was in. Dumbledore immediately turned around. 

"You are awake Miss Black. How are you feeling?" he asked.

I considered saying I was fine, just to be difficult but it was hard to be difficult with someone like Dumbledore. So I opted to keep quiet.

"To answer your question, you were not sick hence no need to go to the hospital wing." said Dumbledore.

"I saw her die. I felt her pain when she was tortured. I saw the hopelessness of her plight." I said. Dumbledore did not say anything he merely handed me a bar of chocolate. "I don't understand Professor. Aren't I supposed to see the future? Why did I see the past? Why did I have to see her die? Why?" I asked trembling. Tears flowed out of my eyes like streams down a slope.

"How did you see it?" asked Dumbledore.

"What?" I asked

"Was it a vision?" he asked.

"Yes..no. It didn't feel like one. It felt more like, like a memory. I know it sounds crazy but that's how it felt." I said. Dumbledore seemed deep in thought.

"Have you had any such memories before?" he asked

"No. Unless you count the dream I had last year about James Potter dying but he was already dead." I said. For some reason this seemed to trouble Dumbledore further.

"Alright then Miss Black, you may go and get some rest. I'm sorry about your mother. She was once a charming young lady." he said. Somehow I didn't like the sound of that 'once'.

Ginny was waiting for me in my room. "Oh Miley are you okay?" she asked.

"I want to be alone." I said

"But Miley I just want to know how you are." she said coming closer to me. A storm of emotions brewed inside me and I felt slightly queasy as I snapped.

"Really? You want to know how I am? I just saw my aunt murdering my mother before my dad's eyes! I felt the torture of the Cruciatus curse! I felt her die! My uncle lied to me about why and how she died! I want ANSWERS!" I screamed. All my dorm mates and Ginny stared at me. I got into bed still fully clothed. Why couldn't anyone give me some peace?

I awoke early the next day and wrote a letter to my uncle.

Dear uncle Remus.

How could you lie to me? Did you think I would break if you told me the truth about her death? Or maybe you thought I was too young to handle it?

I had a vision of her death. Bellatrix tortured her! You told me that she never felt anything! You told me that Rhine held on to her hope even in death. But she didn't. She was hopeless when she died. She lost the one thing that kept her alive and sane uncle Remus, her hope. She asked to be killed.

Maybe if you hadn't sugar coated her death it would have been easier to watch. But it wasn't. It hurts like hell and right now I am really angry.

I hate you for lying to me.

Miley

Angry didn't begin to describe how I felt right now. I walked towards the Owlery looking for Orion. Only my father could understand how I felt, because he had seen Rhine so weak too. I wanted him to hold me and tell me it's okay.

I opened the Owlery door and to my surprise Harry was there. He panicked when he saw me, hiding the letter behind him. "Miley! Hi. Are you okay? What are you doing here?" he said obviously jumpy.

"It is the Owlery. People generally come here to send letters." I said

"Right. Well I'm going. I'll see you around." he said but I held him back.

"There's Hedwig. Which means my dad has replied you. What did he say?"

Harry's shoulders sank. "Don't be mad Miley but he said he's flying North. I'm sorry-" started Harry

"He's coming back?" I asked and he nodded.

"Thank you!" I said throwing my arms around him.

Over the next two weeks I kept an eye out hoping to hear from my father. Our DADA lessons were getting intense. Moody insisted on putting the imperious curse on each of us to see if we could fight it. Even though it was illegal.

I watched Lavender imitate a squirrel, Dean hoping around singing the national anthem and Neville performing gymnastics. "Miss Black, you next." I stepped up. I Saw that he was going to tell me to crawl and bark like a dog.

As he said "Imperio." I put up a mental shield. Protego, protego, protego, I thought.

"You are supposed to to be resisting the curse." said Moody amused.

"You said the best defence was to avoid being hit." I told him.

"Clever girl. Potter. You next."

Harry was told to jump onto the desk but he both tried to jump and tried not to jump. As a result he smashed headlong onto the table.

"See that? Potter fought! Look in his eyes to see the fight. They'll have trouble controlling you." said Moody and he insisted on doing it four times until Harry threw off the curse completely.