My Artwork and Shit #2 (Cringe Warning)

HE NEEDS SOME MILK

my parents got divorced partway through my last artbook and in that book i freaked out and said something like "what if its my dads week and im out of pads oh no-"

and i dismissed it like "no no i'll be fine that wont happen"

gee whiz guess whaT

so all my mom decided to leave me with were two boxes of tampons in her bathroom so i thought "ok i'll just steal a bunch of these bois and we'll be good" so i did and i took a quick nap in one and everything was fine ok

so when it came time to take it out it took 30 minutes matched with immense pain then my fingers were covered in blood so yeah i'll just stuff my pants with toilet paper thank you

tbh i kinda bled once but nothing happened after that like no period so i thought maYbe i ate little enough to shut down my reproductive system and i was v excited like "aw sick i dont have to bleed every month nice i hate kids anyways" but i was wrong i guess cri

the counselor is concerned for my health now too bc i told her how im sleep deprived and i hardly eat lol

i dont really feel hungry but i know havent eaten an actual meal in two days sO-

ive noticed some uH symPtoms like fuzzy spots in my vision, shakiness, weakness, forgetfulness, difficulty concentrating n mood swings so im like boi are these symptoms of sleep deprivation, lack of nutrition, or both wha t

seriously though i was thirsty and a little munchy when i got home so i grabbed my water bottle out of my room to fill it up and put it on the dining room table to fill while i microwaved a quick thing and i completely forgot about it and didnt feel like getting up to get it so i just laid in bed for the rest of the day

you know what bothers me???

i have this friend whos nonbinary their name is sam right and they simply go by they/them pronouns and i know this guy named ethan and we're all in a group in drama and he'll be like "sam's so annoying right god she's blah blah blah" and i'll show up like "heya mate sam goes by they/them pronouns so could you respect that???"

but people are such dicks about using they/them pronouns like ffs its not that hard

if you slip up like i do sometimes and say "she" when referring to sam correct yourself and apologize

people are typically cool with it if you accidentally misgender them but correct yourself and apologize like they're not gonna get mad at you as long as you generally are respectful towards their desired name, gender, and pronouns alrighty??

lol i really want a hug rn where is joey or wyld or something

joey is soft so hes easy to hug

but wyld seems like they would be so lovely to hug guys wyld is so great follow them on insta wyldoodles 

next next day:

ya'll better be proud of my i ate my first meal in like three days last night

it was a dank ass bowl of spaghetti

i keep coming home and sleeping for like 4 hours n waking up at like 7:30 lmao

im so happy tho leslielu marie opened commissions like sCREECh ive been waiting for this for a yeaR oOF

imma get a commission of arcano omg im so excited

an artist i follow on insta (btw #spon their @ is meow.kao i love them) n they were saying how yoongi's enlistment was probably gonna be in 2022 and i was like hOLD UP WHAT IN THE GOD DAMN DIDDLY FUCK DOES THAT MEAN

sO I DID SOME RESEARCH AND NOW I WANNA CRY

ENLISTMENT IS MANDATORY MILITARY SERVICE IN SOUTH KOREA-

JIN WILL PROBABLY HAVE TO ENLIST IN 2020 AND YOONGI IN 2022

IM JUST IMAGINING THIS

I'LL GRADUATE FROM HIGH SCHOOL IN 2022 AND BE OUT IN THE WORLD FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE AND 2 BTS MEMBERS WILL PROBABLY BE IN THE MILITARY AT THAT TIME I CANT HANDLE THIS INFO

damn nothing cheers me up like spending an hour writing up commission info on a tiny instagram description box then accidentally posting it when i didnt want to and having to quickly delete it along with everything i wrote 

bitch my wrists are so thin goddaMN

next day:

its midnight thirty and my dad came into my room and told me he would threaten to take away my stuffed animals for my school ethic anymore and i didnt know how to react

a. thank the lord again my stuffed animals are like a healthy coping mechanism so you should let me keep those around lmao

b. see there was a reason i didnt tell my parents about my rapidly decling mental health (other than being awkward and sp00ked): i didnt want them to treat me differently and i guess this is just a step towards them acting different i mean its not a bad change and id rather my dad not threaten to take away my most prized possessions either way but still

next next day:

i slept over at mother's house last night it was great

we played minecraft and fortnite with her boyfriend 

we also went to target and i bought some fake succulents

"emerson succulents arent even that hard to take care of and you got fake ones??"

yes because im barely surviving rn and i cant feed or water myself or give myself sunlight sO-

i leFT MY WALLET AT MOTHER'S HOUSE AND IT HAS MY DEBIT CARD IN IT SJHSSH

it aint that i dont trust her bc i do i trust her with my higgity life bUT I NEED MY DEBIT CARD ATM BC I REALIZED MY ORIGINAL PAYPAL WAS CONNECTED TO MY PERSONAL EMAIL LIKE LOL NOPE SO I HAD TO MAKE A NEW ACCOUNT WITH A NEW EMAIL JSHSJAJ IMMA CRY

i called her asking if she could like send me a pic of my card bc i trust her a lot like a loT

she said yeet after her fortnite match like i understand you better get fiRST HOE

heres some art (the next chapter is just gonna be commission examples/prices/other fun stuff so you can skip that if you got no money)