Remember Me | HIATUS

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The entire time the three of them were bowling, Caitlin's mind was whirling. She was nervous to tell Barry about Savitar because she knew he was going to worry about her, but she also wasn't sure how he was going to take the news of her not-so-friendly neighbour. He could fear her and leave her and that's the last thing she wanted. Savitar will have won beyond the grave at that point.

"Hey," Barry spoke up, breaking Caitlin out of her thoughts. "Is everything okay? You've been pretty quiet the entire night."

She looked up into his emerald eyes and let out a breath she didn't know she was holding in. She was way too nervous to have this conversation.

"What do you know about the past three years?" She finally asked him. She sat down on the edge of their bed while Barry stood in front of her, confused.

"That you're my girlfriend and I have super speed. Cisco didn't tell me every detail." He shrugged his shoulders, a little confused on why that was why she had been quiet the entire night. He thought that she would have been happier knowing that he was trying to reconnect with Cisco.

"He never mentioned Savitar?" Caitlin questioned.

"Savi-who?"

"I'll take that as a no." She sighed.

Even after everything happened she never really talked to Barry about it. He would try to get her to open up which would cause an argument, but she couldn't bring herself to talk about everything that happened. It pained her to. She didn't even want to think about it. She wanted to just forget and move on from it, but Barry persisted in trying to get her to tell him how she felt. He believed if she were to talk about it and let her true feelings out, that was when she could finally move on. And maybe he was right considering how long it's been since everything has happened and she was still hurting.

"This is really hard to talk about so bear with me, okay?" She told him and he nodded his head, walking over to her to sit beside her on the bed. She turned her body to face him and sat crossed legged.

She took a deep breath before she began to speak. "Last year there was another speedster who claimed he was the God of speed. It turned out that he was a time remnant of yourself from the future. In order for himself to be created you needed to feel pain so terrible that you would revert to the dark side, thus creating him."

"What would be so painful that I would become dark?" Barry asked her, but a part of him didn't want to know the answer to that question. That was probably what was bothering her.

"I had to die."

"Oh my god." Barry whispered then remained quiet for a moment. He wanted to know everything that went down, but was worried that she wouldn't want to talk about it. He didn't want to press her in this moment, but his curiosity was getting the better of him.

"Do you know what this necklace does?" Caitlin asked him. His eyes looked down at the glowing snowflake laying on her chest. He had been wondering why she wore it everyday, but it could have been something he had gotten for her in the past as a present. It was jewelry after all.

"I just assumed it was a normal necklace." He said, shrugging his shoulders.

"Well, it's not. I'm like you. I'm a meta human." Caitlin said to him, making sure that she held eye contact.

"What?" Barry asked her, shocked. Why didn't he know this before? Why didn't she tell him? This was something that was pretty important, she should have told him.

"Except I'm not the good kind, like you are. Savitar knew this because in the future I was Killer Frost, not Caitlin Snow."

"Killer Frost?"