He Never Does || n.h

Chapter 21: Do You Still Love Him?

Chapter 21:

Morning light trickles it's way into my room and I pry open my still heavy eyelids. I look up to see Ash still asleep, my head buried into her shoulder and her thin arm resting over me.

I tuck a piece of loose blonde hair behind her ear and her eyelids flutter open. I feel overjoyed this morning...it almost feels like I have my best friend back.

"Morning." She yawns and stretches her tall frame.

"Morning." I reply.

"How are you feeling?" She asks me with a concerned look.

"I'm better than last night so I guess I'm alright." I shrug. I'm definitely not okay with the fact that everyone knows my secret now but in some ways it's also a relief.

"Better is good, I'll take better." She smiles. We both attempt to get our lazy butts out of bed but we end up sort of sitting cross legged instead of lying down. She drapes her legs over the edge of the bed so she is facing away from me.

I begin to feel nervous as silence fills the room. She is playing with the comforter like she normally does when she has something to say.

"What's-" I'm about to ask when she interrupts.

"Do you still love him?" She turns around to face me. I'm thrown back by her question.

"Ben? No Ash, I never did." I reply honestly.

"No, do you still love...him?" She gestures her head towards the hallway. I'm very aware that Niall's door happens to be on the other side of it.

I have never lied to Ash in my entire life. Even when I left for New York, she knew I was leaving I just didn't tell her exactly when. If I want to become her shoulder to cry on as much I want her to be mine, I need to be truthful. Plus, if I don't tell someone I think I might explode.

"Yes." I confess and look down at the covers.

"I'm glad." She smiles at me.

"What? I thought you said to leave him alone?" I question her change in heart.

"I did but that's only because I hadn't properly gotten to know the new you. Because you have changed Rosie, and despite what I originally thought it is for the better. I love you so much and nothing changed that even though Im a complete bitch sometimes. I want you to be happy and I'd much rather have you love Niall over that fucking prick Ben. Your my best friend, and Niall would be lucky to have you." She gushes.

I'm pretty sure my eyes are about to well up with tears. I have her back and I feel like I'm on top of the world.

"Plus, I literally want to rip Nina's hair out." She adds and we both burst into laughter.

"I hate her so fucking much and not even because of him, I just would really like to see her fall from a moving plane. Especially if I was the one pushing her." I say seriously and Ash gasps in fake shock.

"You don't like her? We all thought the two of you were the best of pals! I mean, it was so obvious to us! Wow, I am flabbergasted." She mocks me and I roll my eyes.

"I missed this." I sigh after she finishes laughing at herself.

"Me too." She reaches out and grabs my hand.

"Who needs boys, I have you." I pull her into a tight hug. It's true. Niall and Ben can hurt me all they want as long as Ashland is here to catch me when I fall.

"Chicks over dicks." She says into my mess of morning hair. I just nod and smile into her strawberry scented locks.

"C'mon let's go downstairs, I can smell food." She jumps up and drags me out of bed.