Struggle For Power [✓]

Chapter 28

Selena's POV

I didn't want the girls around, as much as that sounded horrible. To be honest, it was more for their sake than mine. Misery and anger; a terrible concoction. Arguing with Justin just added to the already conflicting emotions running around in my brain, it just didn't seem like I deserved a good night or that I even wanted it. Just drowning myself in some form of an alcoholic beverage on my own would suffice perfectly while feeling unapologetically sorry for myself even though I am to blame. I knew it would be too late to cancel any plans they have in store.

All I could do was dry my eyes and suck it up. 

I wanted to call him, yet just mentally picturing him made me want to smash my phone over and over again. Hearing his voice would begin a terrible pulsing ring in my ear but all I wanted was his smooth voice telling me everything would work out. Seeing him would lead me down a path of desperation but I would cave in an instant. I wanted to keep him close and understand everything, yet the thought of his touch repulsed me skin deep. Every single thing I wanted to do just had a negative balance in response. 

That is how my life felt.

He kept trying to reach me. He was persistent. Phone call after phone call. Text after text. I'm sure if I looked into my emails, he would be there as well. The first call occurred within the same minute he stormed out of the house. I couldn't even think about what words I would say to him. A conclusive fact would be that every word I say to him would be shouted wildly.

I was suddenly deprived of my self-pity as I heard the front door opening from the room closest and I knew it was one of the girls. On command, I stood up from the sofa, tightening the dressing gown slightly and began to pace towards the front door.

"Okay, I have packed at least 4 different outfits with shoes and all my make up for you tonight, even all the Fenty make up I didn't even want to bring but since I love you, I did." Ariana walks into the comfort of my home with a small suitcase in her grasp and a widened smile on her face. She pulls the handle of it until she makes a sudden halt to take off her coat and hang it up in a polite manner - something she never failed to do. She hadn't even looked at me yet, she was a well-oiled machine. "I am thinking maybe dark eyes with some glitter and a sexy nude lip for you."

But I was puzzled by her physical appearance. I was expecting her to be in some kind of fluffy onesie, minimal makeup and a perfectly messy bun. She was fully glamoured up from her smokey eye makeup to her gorgeous half-up, her hairstyle with her natural, luscious curls secured all over. All she was missing was the sparkly outfit that was blinding that was hiding in the suitcase somewhere, ready to amaze everyone.

"Okay, why?" I ask her, confused. I looked outside to see whether Demi was with her but I suppose she came alone. I close the door and Ariana stands there, flaunting some level of sass as she silently judged my attire. "Why are you all dressed up?"

"We are hitting the town tonight and painting it a deep, dark red." She exclaims excitedly while I was hoping it was just to do some fake catwalk shit like we used to do in high school.

"I-I-I we are what now?"

"You heard me, now the question is, why do you look like that?" Gesturing her hand out, she doesn't look the slightest impressed. I look down at my old silk dressing gown which had lost its seductive touch from it being torn on the sleeves, covering my body followed by some fluffy unicorn slippers, trying to totally ignore my smudged makeup or my hair which had its own mind right now. "Demi is going to be here any minute and you could of at least started to do something with your hair. You know a thing called a brush, right?"

I awkwardly scratch the back of my head. I needed some deeper insight. "W-What?"

"I just told you, we are going out tonight so come on, get ready." By her sudden pull of my sleeve, followed by the movement of her suitcase, I didn't argue any of my wanted protest. It was a losing battle, especially with Demi probably on her way.