dear friend 💚🍄,
how are you? i'm a mess
so , i quit my job, i'm not stupid , i knew they were going to fire me anyway and with mom being in rehab i've been distracted lately , the only reason it took so long is cause they though kyli would be mad , please, she doesn't care about me as much as it seems , i knew a lot of them didn't like me , i'm not stupid , how much they talk about me behind my back, it doesn't matter, i'm not going back in that store anyway, ive been told i push people away and am closed off quite a bit and so people don't want to talk to me, ive been writing these letters for a while now, but i haven't wrote everything, especially from my childhood , not a lot of people know nor can figure out why i get so closed off , trust issues, constantly being lied to, being put down a lot by my own parents , i get so closed off because that's how i make sure i don't break down completely, i don't talk because i'm tired or i have something on my mind or slike or rea or riley are talking to me or each other and i keep my mouth shut because i don't want to end up talking out loud , leh, and i know it might seem selfish but i don't like coming up to people and talking because i get so scared they're just annoyed when i talk to them that i might as well not , it's nice if someone comes up to talk to me or something but even then i don't talk much , i'm terrified i'll say something wrong or it won't be me saying something , and so i keep to myself closed off and quiet , maybe it's not so bad just being alone for a while ive been lied to and manipulated so many times by people close to me that my first reaction is to be closed off
💚🍄,
