Inevitable

Chapter 31

Rhenn's P.O.V.

The sun is glaring through the window. I frown, Angry at myself for not shutting the blinds before I cried myself to sleep, like a little bitch. I stretch sitting up in the bed. I look around disappointed. I don't know what I expected. Someone to be in here with me? Michael coming into bed to hold me? I don't expect any of that. I fucked up royally. My head throbs from last night. I look at my phone. It's 7 in the morning. I groan getting out of bed. I change my clothes and got into ripped denim shorts and a red and white striped shirt.

I wipe my face with a wet rag getting rid of last night's evidence. My eyes are still red and puffy. But, to be honest, I really don't care. I just lost the one person who means the most to me, because I got lost in a kiss that meant nothing to me. My lip starts to quiver while I'm staring at my reflection in the mirror. My hair hangs lifeless, along my face. My lips are dry and chapped. I have dark bags under my eyes. My eyes have no life in them, no shine, no nothing.  I can't hold it in any longer. I cry into the palms of my hands. Sinking down to the bathroom floor.

I hear a knock at the door. I get up and answer it. Not bothering to even rid my face of tears. I open the door to Harry Styles of all people.

His eyes are wide with worry. I look at him with tear filled eyes "Hi" I greet him in a small voice. 

"Rhennie are you okay?"

"Um yeah." I fake a smile

"No you're not. May I come in?" He asks.

I move out of the way without a word and let him in.  I close the door behind him and turn to see him sitting on my bed. He pats the bed beside him. I give him a small smile and sit next to him.

"So, I have to apologize for my behavior earlier yesterday. I'm sorry for giving you the cold shoulder. I had no idea that you weren't officially involved with Louis. I get a little territorial around him. But, I also want to talk to you about why you're crying."

"It's fine." My voice quivers slightly.

"Tell me why you're so upset Rhenn."

"I lost the the guy that was always there for me. I lost the person that I have unexplained feelings for. I lost the guy that means the world to me because of a kiss that meant nothing to me."

I stare at my hands. Emotion void from my voice and facial features. He stares ahead pondering what to say.

"I think you just need to talk to him. Explain yourself. If he feels the way I think he does, He will want to listen and you guys will get through it." He grasps my hands.

"What do I even say to him? I don't think I could form words for him. The look on his face when he shut the door after seeing us, was heartbreaking. I hurt him, I did this.  I don't think it's fixable Harry." My voice cracking. I bite the insides of my cheeks to stop from crying. Reality hit me hard, hearing that come out of my mouth.

"Rhenn, you never know if you don't try. I think you should tell him before we all leave."

"Leave?!" My heart races.

"Were going to the next city for a month then we will come back here for break."

"Oh, I see."

"You need to tell him."

"I'm afraid to go down stairs and see him."

"Don't worry, they already left. They had to go get Luke cleaned up and get ready. He went hard last night." Harry chuckles.

The thought of Luke partying and being drunk makes me laugh a little. "See there's a start." He smiles at me.

I smile at him. "I think need to go see Michael." I finally say. He's right. I'll never know if I dont try. "Jess and Zayn are down stairs. Jess and I talked. They are going to the meeting spot for our tour buses, to say our final goodbyes to everyone. Niall and I are going now, so i'll see you in a little while."

He gives me a side hug and gets up. I swallow hard.

"You'll be fine. He'll be fine. Everything will be fine." He assures me.

"Hey harry?"

He turns around. "Thank you." I smile at him genuinely.

"No problem." He smirks back.

When he shuts the door I go back to the bathroom and brush through my hair. I apply some makeup trying to make myself presentable. I know it won't be on for long. It's possible that I will let my emotions get the best of me. I can't lose him. I just can't. That would be the end of me. I have to prepare for the worst. I look in the mirror again and nod to myself.

I get my bags and head down stairs. I see Jess and Zayn hugging. When they notice me they go silent.

"Hey Rhenn, are you okay?" Jess says walking towards me and hugging me softly.

I hug her back burying my face in her hair. "I can't lose him Jess. Why it took me so long to recognize my feelings for him i don't know. But, it was ridiculous. That kiss between Lou and I meant nothing. I think him and I both know that. It was a mistake and I would gladly spend the rest of my life making it up to Michael. He at least needs to know that before he leaves."

I pull back to look at her and I see a small purple mark peeking out of her shirt. She has a hickey.

"Did you guys-"

"Yes, I'll tell you later!" She whispers.

I giggle at her and shake my head.

Zayn is in the living room now, leaving us to have some time to talk. I pull my phone to text Michael.

To: Mikey

Hey I know I'm the last person you want to hear from.

But, please, please, please don't leave yet. I have something to tell you.

Just consider it. I'll be there in a half an hour.

-Rhenn

I sent it and slide it back in my front pocket, I don't wait for him to reply. I just look at Jess.

"I'm ready.." I sigh.