Inevitable

Chapter 38

Jess walks back in holding a package. I look up from my lap and see that it's an un-opened pregnacy test. Sophia and I get on our feet.

"I'm going to pee on this." Jess sighs and plays with the test in her hands.

We nod our heads yes and walk out of the door. I grab the door handle to close the door.

"No, sit on the floor right there. I'm going to pee with the door open so you know I'm not lying."

"Jess you don't h-"

"Just sit!"

I stare at her wide eyed. I slouch down to the carpet and hold my phone in my lap. Sophia and I snap our jaws shut and try not to stare at her while she's peeing.

My phone buzzes and I look down. It's Michael. I smile and swipe to read it.

From: Mikey<3

Oh my god. I thought you were mad at me. Thank god.

I don't like not hearing from you all day. Especially when I'm out of town. :(

Can we skype, please? I want to see your beautiful faceee.

To: Mikey<3

Jess, Soph, and I are in a serious coversation right now.

Like dead serious. I'll text you when I'm ready to skype. Give us a minute?

xox

From: Mikey<3

Okay, I hope everything is alright...

"Here."

I look up from my phone and see the test being handed to me. I glance up to Jess's expressionless face. I take it from her and examine it. It was blank for right now. I tilt it so her urine comes down to the circles on the test. Soon enough, two blue lines appear signifying she's indeed pregnant.

"Fuck.." I breathe and lean my head back on the wall. I pass it to Sophia and she sighs heavily.

Jess sits cross legged in front of us.

"Have you told Zayn yet?"

She looks up and tears fill her eyes again. Shit, I didn't mean to make her cry again. I lean forward hastily and hug her again.

"I'm sorry Jess. I didn't mean to."

Shes silent. I know she's scared shitless. She is the fearless one. She is the strong one. She NEVER cries. So, when she does, you know she is either scared out of her mind or she is hurt. I have to be strong for her. She's going to need her friends now more than ever.

She pulls away and hugs her knees to her chest. She wipes her nose on the sleeve of Zayns hoodie, she put on before coming in here. "I haven't told him yet..." She looks at me. I-I'm scared, Rhenn." Her voice cracks breaking my heart with every word.

Tears are threatening to spill from my eyes.  Sophia wraps an arm around her and Jess leans her head on her shoulder. "I'm sorry you have to go through this Jess." Sophia rocks her a little.

"I don't want to do this by myself. I can't do this by myself. If he leaves because of what we did together. To bring this tiny human to life." She grabs her tummy. I just now notice that it's sticking out a little. "It will tear me apart. My whole world will come crashing down." she finishes in a sob. She covers her mouth with her hand and squeezes her eyes shut.

"Jess, if he loves you like I think he does. He won't leave. He will be here for you. He needs to man up and take care of you and this baby coming in to the world. It wasn't like it was on purpose and you didn't do it all on your own. It takes two."

She nods her head slowly. She is unable to speak without crying.

Once Jess has calmed down a bit we decide to watch the movie and digest this new information. By the time the movie is over the girls are passed out next to me. Jess was exhausted and could hardly keep her eyes open. I texted Mikey telling him to meet me on skype. I go to our room and get comfortable on my bed. I get a "call" from him and I answer it. The screen pops open and I see him smiling like an idiot.

"Hi babe!" He says instantly.

"Hi Michael. What are you doing?" I grin at him.

"Just sitting here being bored. The hotel has literally nothing to do." He frowns a little.

"I'm sorry, why don't you guys go out or something?"

"We have to be up early tomorrow. But, we atleast thought there would be a pool here." 

"There's no pool there!? What kind of hotel are you in?"

"The shitty kind." He pouts and I laugh at him. It feels like ages since I've laughed. My smile falls a little when I remember Jess.

"Babe, what's wrong?" Mikey asks

"Oh, Uhm I was just thinking about Jess."

"What about her?"

"Mikey I'm only going to tell you this because I love you and I trust you with everything I have. So, please don't say anything."

"Rhenn, Just tell me." He's serious now.

"Jess, uh, Jess is almost 3 months pregnant.."

Silence. There is nothing. His mouth is opened in the shape of an "o".

He looks around above the screen and then back at me.

"Y-You're serious. This isn't a joke right? She's not pretending?"

"No, Michael, this is real life right now."

"Damn..." He sighs and covers his mouth with his hand.

"I know.. I'm literally terrified for her. I don't know what I would do in that situation. She's supposed to be the strong one Mikey. I don't know how to be strong for her. She is a mess, a literal mess. She cried for atleast 3 hours tonight. She hasn't told Zayn yet. I don't know how he hasn't noticed her puking or gaining weight in her stomach."

"He's a guy, Rhenn. We don't notice that stuff and automatically associate it with pregnancy. Why hasn't she told him? She's kept it a secret for that long?"

"I guess you're right. No she hasn't told him. She's so afraid of rejection by him it's not even funny."

"Babe, she needs to tell him asap." he urges.

"I can't tell her what to do. This is between them and noboby else."

He nods and yawns.

"I'll let you get some sleep okay?" I yawn after him.

He chuckles, "Alright baby, I love you. I will see you tomorrow okay?"

"I love you too. Yes you will. Good night." I blow him a kiss.

"Good night beautiful."

I smile and exit out of skype. I shut my lap top down and go back out to the living room. I cover the girls up and sit on the opposite couch. I stare at my cousin. This beautiful girl is going through hell and there is nothing I can do, except go through it with her. I sigh and lay down on my pillow, finally drifting off into a much needed sleep.