When the tears are in your eyes
And you feel like you wanna cry
Just reach out and I’ll be around to understand
When you stumble and fall
And you need a shoulder to lean on
All you have to do is call
And I’ll be there with a helping hand”
Sarah POV
What will I do? How can I help Gerald? Why did he make the admission in his interview? It just makes things complicated. How will he faced the consequences of his action? He knows how I feel and told him that at this point in time, I cannot entertain any emotional attachment. I am not yet ready, but why am I feeling this way. I don’t want to see him hurting. Please Lord, guide me how can I help him.
Ate shine knocked on my door. Sarah, mommy asked me to tell you to get ready. You have lots of schedules to do today and you will be meeting the big bosses for an emergency meeting. Yes, Ate, am ready.
Sarah went down and go straight to the dining hall to eat her brunch. Her yaya gave her milk and vitamins to drink. Mommy D: Good morning princess. It look liked you have not slept well; you have eyebags puffing up your face. Are you thinking about what Gerald announces yesterday in his interview? You know what; I like the guts of Gerald. He seems sincere and honest about his feelings for you. What do you think? Looking at her mischievously while Ate Shine joined in. Sarah did not responded to her mothers, she kept on looking at her cell.. She is curious. No messages from Gerald. This is the first time that Gerald failed to sent early morning messages. She has this gut feeling that something is definitely wrong.
Mommy, will it be alright if then changed ... Ay it’s okay, I’ll just talk with him later. Mommy D: What is your question, princess? Nothing Mommy, I’ll finished my food and prepare so we can leave early.
Mommy D: Just remember, Sarah, we are all here to listen on anything that is bothering you. We don’t want you to experience another pain, by keeping what is in your mind to yourself. Is it about Gerald?
Sarah: (sighing) Yes, Mommy. He called last night and I felt that something is wrong, he seems to be crying. I know he loves me but I had this great fear to let him know what I truly feel. I am not yet ready Mommy for any relationship. What can I do to help him.
Mommy D: Let’s be honest about this, Sarah. Do you feel anything about Gerald? What he is to you, aside as being his friend?
Sarah: Mommy, to be honest, I don’t know what am I feeling, why am I so concern about him? Why I don’t want to see him hurting and in pain? Why he can always make me smile with the small things he does even just merely greeting me every morning and every hour? Why am I bothered that for the first time he has not texted me nor called me today? He already did a lot for me including the effort he did to ask for your and Daddy’s permission if he can officially court me and visit me here. And I greatly appreciated it because he makes me feel I am “Special”. But still at the back of my mind, there is this great fear “what if I am going to be hurt again?
But Mommy, I know and I feel that he needed me now. I wanted to comfort him and make him feel that he can depend on me at this time that nobody seems to care for him.
Mommy D: What happen to you in the past doesn’t mean that you have to suppress your feelings and hide. Everything happen for a reason, you feel the pain of rejection in order for you to see the truth that not all that glitters are gold. Trust in the Lord that He will guide you in all your decision just listen and not let your emotion rule your life. You are not getting any younger and we will not always be there to decide for you. Listen to your heart, and you will find the answer there. We know you are mature enough to discern what is real this time. Don’t let it passed by and later regret about it. If you want to go to Gerald to comfort him and your heart say so, then do it. Just remember, we are always here to support you because we love you unconditionally. We are one family no matter what happen and what other people will say.
