So Easter was pretty good. I hope y'all had a good Sunday.
On Thursday, apparently, someone somehow disabled my stepmom and my SIM cards. Luckily, we got new ones today, and it's all good.
How have y'all been?
I've been really contemplating my life because I suddenly realized (I mean, I've realized before but it just hit me) that I am reverting. I have been wanting to be the age I am now since I was little, and now, I just want to be 14 again. I'm over 3 years gone from 14, but here I am, wishing I was there again. Adulthood seemed so far away and now it's literally a year away. Forget that crap. I know I should look forward to being able to make choices for myself, but let's be honest, I can't take care of myself. I'm painfully awkward, and I'm actually kind of bad with subtle social cues directed towards me. I barely know what I want for myself, and I'm horribly indecisive.
Gosh, I don't know why I'm such a downer rn. I guess with senior year coming close, I'm just worried. I'm really worried about college. Everyone else seems to know exactly where they want to go, and I can't even decide what state. Oh well. It'll work out. It always does. If not, I'll just try to live a good life and die.
Hope y'all are better than me. M'kay.
~Mariah
