Before the Unexpected √ (Completed)

Chapter 24

*Melody P.O.V*

I was walking down the street with my headphones on listening to "in my blood" by shawn mendes, since I am his biggest fan and please no argument i know you guys will say i am his biggest fan and then another will say "no i am" and that's how the world war 3 will begin so no arguments fangirls and fanboys. Ugh I just love him so much not because of his voice and talent, no but for his personality and his honesty, he let his whole heart out when he sings and he always is caring about others even if he don't know them, he wants the best for everybody and he appreciate his fans, he loves them so much. Okay... i got a little too carried away.

"in my blood" reminds me a lot of my situation, it's really deep and it brought back memories

Help me
It's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't
It isn't in my blood

It reminds me when I was feeling like the world is just a useless place, in a part of my life I actually thought about ending all of this I hated it, I hated that nobody was there to help me when I cried for it.

Laying on the bathroom floor
Feeling nothing
I'm overwhelmed and insecure
Give me something
I could take to ease my mind
Slowly

This part brought back the memory when I was laying on the floor feeling numb, no one knew the pain and the storms that were inside of me...

Just have a drink and you'll feel better
Just take her home and you'll feel better
Keep telling me that it gets better
Does it ever?

The one thing that I oppose to those lyrics is take her home, I wish i had a place so called "home", I lost it all when I lost my parents, other than that I feel the exact same way.

Help me
It's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
No medicine is strong enough
Someone help me
I'm crawling in my skin
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't
It isn't in my blood
It isn't in my blood

It's true no medicine ever made me feel better there were all useless, every time they thought I needed a psychologist, and she would just talk bullshit and then give a name for a medicine and hell no i didn't take it, I hated it, I hated my psychologist, I hated everybody. This pain could not be healed with medicines, no... it needed another person with me to help me.

I'm looking through my phone again Feeling anxious
Afraid to be alone again
I hate this
I'm trying to find a way to chill
Can't breath, oh...

It reminds me of my best friend Damian and that son of a bitch A.K.A Xavier, every time I looked through my phone afraid of receiving a message form Xavier, I hated that feeling but I had Damian with me, I was so afraid of loosing him he was the closest person to my heart, he helped me when I felt anxious and couldn't breath from crying so much, but now that I think again I was afraid of everything.

Is there somebody who could
Help me
It's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
No medicine is strong enough
Someone help me
I'm crawling in my skin
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't
It isn't in my blood
It isn't in my blood
I need somebody now
I need somebody now
Someone to help me out
I need somebody now

But then that somebody disappeared from my life as he was killed by that motherfucker that I hate and I will always hate him as long as I live, the only person I trusted the one person that helped me out was gone, so now I'm screaming for help like before but the only difference is I don't have anybody.

Help me
It's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't
It isn't in my blood
It isn't in my bloo, oh
It isn't in my blood
I need somebody now
It isn't in my blood
I need somebody now
It isn't in my blood

By now tears were rolling down my face, they wouldn't stop, I couldn't take this damn life anymore but I just couldn't give up like that even though I've been fighting my whole life, I needed someone to understand me, I couldn't do it alone, not anymore.

My phone started ringing pulling me out of my thoughts, I declined whoever was calling, I wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone, I needed to be alone in my thoughts but at the same time I wanted someone with me so I could tell them how I feel , I need to lift this weight off my shoulders.

Then my phone started ringing again and again so I answered it.

"What the fuck do you want? " I said angrily, again I was in no mood to talk to anyone.

"Melody? " I heard Corbyn's voic.

Am I still breathing? Euuu, let me check, yes I think I am.

"What do you want Corbyn? "

"I just wanted to talk to you about what happened... " his voice came smooth from the other side of the line.

"Now you wanna talk? After all you said to me? You didn't even hear my side of the story and you said hurtful things to me, I fucking hate my life, I wish it would end already" I said calmly, almost whispering.

"No don't say that I really didn't mean t-" then a loud car horn was heard, one second I was walking the next I was laying on the ground not able to move, black dots taking over my vision, the last thing I heard was Corbyn's voice calling my name before darkness took over me.