Produce 101 s2 Imagines {Requests Still Open}

Taken - Lai Guanlin

I walked to the building feeling the freshness of my newly bathed self and the start of spring. My shoes were new too, my Mom sent them for me here even though she's so busy. No matter how many luxurious things I receive from other people, I still treasure what Mom gave me most. I feel the loneliness because she's not here though, my Eomma. She's back in Taipei with all my other family members.

I'm the only one here in Korea, to pursue the career that I have chosen and I've set my mind into. But this is not about my life here, well it partly is but this is about how I came to love someone more than myself.

When I did get inside the lobby, I saw her figure sitting with a smile on her face. When she saw me, she waved her hands to me. I plastered the biggest smile on my face to see her but I already knew that I was not the reason why she was here.
Her name is Jennie, with her signature charisma when she's doing what she loves to do. Jennie likes to skate on ice, she's a rising athlete to be exact.

I met her when I was nearly two years in my career as an Idol. She spilt her entire bowl of noodles on me when I visited a restaurant. We did not have a great first meeting, she looked so broken at that time and I was also on the peak of my emotions. I was watching how his boyfriend took the initiative to tell her the truth that he doesn't love her anymore, I remembered how pale her face had gotten after that. Her boyfriend left her after that, his face showered with relief when Jennie gave him a reassuring smile that she was going to be fine. Although she asked him why he would suddenly want to break up, he told her that she found someone. Jennie tried to tell him that she could change hersef, to be better. But I knew that it was not gonna happen.

Everyone turned to their table, all eyes watched as the heartbreaking scene happened. It ticked me off to have known that no one even took the courage to comfort Jennie when the guy left. They just made the event as their main gossip and moved on with it.

But I was not like them, I wanted to keep a low profile because anyone must not know that I was eating in a restaurant but I just felt like I had to go near this girl.

I voluntarily wore the ugly wig Daehwi gave me as his way of helping my undercover and walked towards Jennie's table.

"Miss?" Jennie was just about to leave the place when I took the chance to go near her.

Our eyes met for a few seconds before she stared at the handkerchief that was on my hand.

"What is that for?" She was looking at it like it was an object from another planet.

"You can use it to wipe your tears." She softly grabbed the handkerchief and used it on her face.

However, she accidentally toppled her bowl of noodles over so it dropped by me. It stained my clothes and I felt uncomfortable. But that doesn't change the fact that this girl probably feels worse than me right now.

I guess she was curious about who I was and she recognized me when she quietly whispered my name.

"Lai Guanlin?"

"You know me?" She softly nodded her head.

"Your face is everywhere in the city, don't you know that?"

"I do."

It was right then and there when I started to become her friend. We unexpectedly clicked in such a short time and now 2 years after, I see her hand in hand with Seonho.

I guess I missed so many timings to confess my heart to her. I walked a few meters behind them with ache in my heart. I never knew my friend would fall in love with her too.

She still is in my heart, but it is hopeless for me to ever think of us having a chance. Seonho and Jennie, they're taking things seriously now.

All I can ever do is support them, a fake smile plastered on my face but a crushed heart on the inside.

I saw her first, but he held her hand first. I saved her first, but he stayed with her the longest. I guess she really is not meant for me.

I can't do anything anymore, it would be too late for me to step things up. I just need to man up and accept the fact that she will never be mine.