Produce 101 s2 Imagines {Requests Still Open}

Love You - Hwang Minhyun

I stared at a picture of me and him when we were younger, we were sitting on a bench with our hands intertwined. Looking at his face made me battle with with my inner thoughts, why can't I just tell him the truth? why?

It's because I was afraid that he will leave me, and our friendship. Afraid that he cannot return my feelings because he only sees me as a friend and will staybas a friend. But for this past few days, I couldn't hold myself anymore. My time is running out and if I can't tell him what I truly feel, I won't forgive myself. His busy schedules always complicated our time together, I was getting used to it but deep inside, I'm still hoping that we could go back to the time when it was just the both of us. No Idol life, no responsibilities, just the two of us mattered.

But I can't keep him away from his dream like that, his struggles to become what he is today made me proud. The Hwang Minhyun I know was a silly, awkward but a really great person.

When he became a trainee, his eyes glinted in excitement and I was proud of how far he's come now even after experiencing bitterness for 6 years.

I kicked the pebbles near my feet as I stood up from the bench. He was 15 minutes late and I wouldn't mind waiting for hours just to see his face.

I like you

I wondered how he would react when I say that to him. He will just feel sorry that he can't return his feelings towards me. Even if he would like me back, his life now won't let it. His fan girls, his career, everything won't fit.

"Hey buddy." Minhyun stated as he engulfed me in a warm hug, if only we could be like this always.

"Minhyun," I could say his name a thousand times and I will never get tired, ever.

"Sorry, I'm late." I looked at him and studied his features, why does he have to be so perfect? I can't go like this.

"No, it's okay. I just got here." his eyes we're tired, he probably went straight here even though he was supposed to go and rest.

"I missed you, bud. It's been months till I last saw you." We we're now seated at the bench that I sat on earlier.

"I know Minhyunnie, I'm so proud of how far you've come now." I patted his back and he stared at me intently, why do you have to be like this?

"How are you? What about eommoni?"He bombarded me with questions that I forgot what I was supposed to be saying for a while.

"I'm fine, eomma's still running her salon." I looked at him , not caring if he became awkward or not, It's now or never anyway.

"What's wrong? why are you looking at me like that?" he cupped my face and squished my cheeks, making me pout at him.

"Nothing's wrong." There is something wrong, I'm just hesitating to tell you right now though. I just came here for one purpose only. I'm afraid of what will happen once I tell you what I really feel, I'm so afraid that I'm pale right now. It's like destroying our years of friendship.

"Don't lie to me, Febie. I know there's something wrong when you're like this. I know you, because you're my best friend." I was nearly comforted by his words but he just ruined it.

"Do you really want to know? " I am so gonna regret this, but If I won't tell him now, then it's still over.

"Yes." he looked dead serious about this.

"Do you really? "

"Tell me already."

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"I like you." I had barely let it out, but I know he heard me.

"I'm so sorry that I have been liking you all this time, I'm destroying our friendship but this is the only time that I've got, I'm sorry." I looked at him with tears in my eyes, for the last time.

He looked bewildered.

"What?" his face made me realize that I really don't have any chance at all.

Then I ran, away from him. I ran as fast as I could without turning back. But I did hear a faint 'wait' until I disappeared in his eyes.

I went home right after that and cried so hard, I let out what I was bottling in for years, but why does it hurt so much? it's because he can't return these feelings that I'm having towards him.

Countless knocks emerged from my front door, I could figure that it was him. I know that he would not leave until we could fix this. But this won't be fixed, no matter how much he tries, it won't.

It just won't.

He would just try to fix our friendship and beg me to bury my feelings .

"Febie, I know you're in there! Please I have to talk to you."

I'm sorry, Minhyun.

"Febie, please!" he sounded so desperate that I almost opened the door for him.

If I see him once again, I would just feel bad.

"Please, Febie. I'm not leaving until you talk to me." he was crying. The Hwang Minhyun that I know cries but rarely. I only saw him cry a few times, and it only involved his loved ones.

"Please," his sobs made me feel guilty, so I opened the door even if things will not go my way.

"Febie, oh god." he was kneeling on the ground with tears, he looked broken now.

But not as broken as me.

"Why are you here, Minhyun? You will just beg me to take my words back, so that everything will be fine for you! But I can't do that, okay? so please leave!"

My sobs got harder .

"It's because I care about you! I like you Febie! I also like you after all this time and I was just afraid to say it! I will never beg you to take your words back because those words are what I was waiting to hear from you all this time!" My eyes got big, and I couldn't believe what he was saying.

"I like you so much, I was planning to tell you tonight. But you went first and ran, I was going to tell you that I feel the same way." his words made me melt, I cried hard and my body was giving up on me.

It's a good thing he caught me on time. His words made me the happiest person alive, but it would be nothing If I was just going to disappear.

"Are you okay? I love you so much Febie. " He kissed me, he kissed me even though I was getting weak to kiss back. He held me with so much passion and I am so thankful to ever meet him.

"I love you so much Hwang Minhyun, but my love is not strong enough to stay with you. I love you so so much."

I have cancer, and it's on the fourth stage.

Life just doesn't go your way.

I love you Hwang Minhyun.