It's You

Kim Seokjin

     I squeeze my eyes closed and try not to let myself break down in Namjoon's embrace. God, I love him so much but he hurt me. If he cheated once what's stopping him from doing it again!
     I pull away from him and try to breath through the pain. My legs and lungs are still hurting from my fall and running so much. My side throbs as my adrenaline finally subsides.
     What do I do? I want to send him away and never see him again...but if I do I know I'll cave and seek him out. He's all I've ever known, really.
      "I'm tired. Y-you should go." I gasp out, stumbling to the bathroom to check out my side. He ignores me and follows to the bathroom. He lifts my shirt up despite my protests and traces his fingers over the large bruise covering my entire side.
     "Baby...why didn't you tell me you were this hurt?" He demands, maneuvering me to the bed and pulling my shirt over my head. Glaring at him, I cross my arms over my chest and try to cover myself.
      He moves around the bathroom for supplies until he finds a first aide kit and sits beside me, eyeing my side. He pulls out an ice pack and forces me to lay back, holding it to my side. I gasp at the icy feeling, trying to jerk away from it.
"This will help. After it numbs some, I'll wrap it for you." He says quietly, his eyes tracing my body with a gentleness that causes me physical pain. Why does he have to treat me so well after cheating on me so carelessly? Why can't he be a jerk or an asshole.
It'd make it so much easier to end this and walk away. His kindness and caring touch always gets me. Every time.
      "I c-can do it!" I explain once more and grab the wrap out of the first aide kit.
      He frowns. "You can wrap it around your whole body alone with that pain? Then close it behind you?"
     I glare at his hidden sarcasm. "Sure I can! Just please...go." My voice loses power by the end and it's practically just a whisper. A plea.
     He swallows hard, putting the ice pack down. "Please, Jin...c-can I be with you just tonight. One more night. I just want to take care of you and make sure you're okay and safe before I let you go." Unshed tears fill his intense eyes.
     I look away. Hating myself. "O-okay. Just tonight. Then leave. I'll go back to get my things in the morning." I shiver as his gaze illuminates over me.
     "Whatever you want, Seokjin. If it'll make you happy for me to go away then I will." He sighs, taking the wrap from my hands and slipping it into place around my upper body before fastening the back to hold it.
     He eyes the bruises on my arms. "Where all are you hurt?"
      I shrug. I don't really know myself. "Everywhere kind of hurts." I admit.
      Nodding, he stands and begins unfastening my pants. I yelp as he jerks them down my legs until I'm sitting in only my black boxers. Bruises mar my legs from thigh to ankle.
      Scowling and mumbling obscenities to himself, he begins to clean and disinfect every little cut and bruise until I'm all set. His fingers squeeze my knee before slowly trailing both hands up my inner thighs.
     I eye him suspiciously as he glances up at me with barely concealed passion. "I'm so sorry I wasn't there to protect you." He says before lifting up and presses chaste kisses over my lips.
     I open to him and let his tongue slip inside, his hands caressing my body but careful to avoid my injured side. Gasping, I let him push me onto my back and begin devouring my lips.
      My legs instinctively wrap around his hips, holding him against me. I grip his hair hard as he sucks hickies all over my throat and chest, his hands sliding down to grope my ass roughly.
     Joonie has been so damn busy the last month that we hadn't had any time to make love so this is the first time in weeks ( at least for me).
      Although, he recently fucked Yoongi, he acts as if he's went just as long as me without. As if he's drowning and I'm the only air to save him. As if he's starving and I'm the only sustenance for miles to hold him.
      I moan loudly as my boxers disappear along with his clothes and he slides deep inside me just the way I like. Our bodies move together as one and our heavy breathing and slapping bodies are the only sound in the otherwise silent room. 
      I don't last long. I can't. Not with the man I love moving so perfectly inside me, nailing all my sweet spots so expertly. I cry out a release which he swallows with his lips, kissing me into oblivion as he swells and cums inside me as well.
     I cling to him, not ready to let go just yet but knowing I have to stay strong. I deserve much better than a cheater no matter the circumstances. Doesn't stop me from loving him, though.
     "I love you, baby. I'm so sorry I broke your heart, Jin-ah." He shudders our a deep breath, lacing our fingers together.
     I drop my legs from his body and let him roll off me. Hating the small distance already. This is it. I'm really going to lose everything. I'll probably never see him again. Besides living together...we never crossed paths otherwise. We'd have no reason.
     The thought brings tears to my eyes and a sob bubbles out of my throat. He doesn't speak as I break apart beside him. He simply holds me and silently cries by my side, letting me take control.
     God, why is this so hard? Why did this have to happen? I was so happy...