Written 07/04/18
So this is my first ever song preference. It's Taylor swift "begin again" because she is a damn queeeeenn
"Take a deep breath in the mirror,
He didn't like it when I wore high heels,
But I do"
Your POV
I took a deep breath. A small voice played round and round in my head.
The heels are too much, it was saying, take them off.
I knew deep down that it was only saying that because my ex Adam, didn't like when I wore heels. He liked my height.
He used to like everything about me, but not enough to stay.
I kept the heels on, because they complimented my outfit, because I wasn't going on a date with adam.
"Turn the lock and put my headphones on,
He always said he didn't get this song,
But I do,"
Adam never got music the way I did. He listened to whatever was in the Top Ten, and that was his limit.
I was listening to an obscure band, if you can call it that, called Hippo Campus.
Whenever I used to listen to them, Adam said he didn't get it.
I lock the door behind me as I leave and I slide into my car.
"Walked in expecting you'd be late but you got here early and you stand and wave. I walk to you"
Adam was never on time, sometimes I felt like I wasn't his main priority, something else was always more important and at times I'd wait hours for him to show up.
Reece stood before me, early, and he waved with a smile. I walked across to him.
"You pulled my chair out and helped me in,
And you don't know how nice that is,
But I do"
He crossed to my side of the table and pulled out my chair.
I smiled gratefully.
How could somebody be so different to my ex.
"And you throw your head back laughing like a little kid"
Reece's laugh filled my ears and made my heart melt a little. I was taken aback, I was only recounting a story that happened to me yesterday. Why does he think I'm funny, Adam never did.
"I think it's strange that you think I'm funny, cos he never did"
I begin to laugh along with Reece, feeling comfortable in his presence.
"And I've been spending the last eight months, thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end"
Adam flew hundreds of miles to get away from me.
He had been given a job promotion, but it meant he would have to travel to Boston.
I remember begging him to stay, begging for him to make me his priority for once.
"Y/n", he had said, "I might never get an opportunity like this again"
I remember thinking he'd never get a girl like me again, that he was willing to give me up, but not the job.
"But on a Wednesday, in a café, I watched it begin again"
This was my first date since Adam had left. It had taken me eight months to gather myself enough to even think about letting someone close to me.
From the moment I met Reece, I was so aware that he was different. He'd never treat me like Adam did, he was special.
But somewhere in the back of my head I was always comparing them.
"You said you'd never met one girl who had as many james Taylor records as you, but I do.
We tell stories and you don't know why, you're coming off a little shy, but I do"
Reece hid behind glasses and a small smile. We both told stories, some funny, some serious of our past. He told me about the worst date he ever had, saying he was fourteen and went to the cinema with an older girl, he wasn't let into the film because of the age rating and she went without him.
I laughed along, but he blushed, shy and embarrassed. I found it cute, Adam was always loud and cocky, arrogant. He was never shy and I have to admit, I liked having that effect on Reece.
"But you throw your head back laughing like a little kid"
As the date progresses Reece's nervousness fell away. We sipped some wine, which might have helped, and ate our food comfortably. Laughing at each other's pasts and bad experiences dating.
"I think it's strange you think I'm funny, cos he never did"
I was aware I shouldn't compare Adam and Reece, but I couldn't help it. I didn't want to be hurt again, I didn't want him to leave me like Adam did. I didn't want to spend another eight months piecing my broken heart back together.
"I've been spending the last eight months, thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end.
But on a Wednesday in a café- I watched it begin again"
I think we were both aware from that first meeting, of the chemistry between us, I watched it bloom and before my eyes, I watched us both fall in love.
"And we walked down the block to my car"
Reece insisted on walking me to my car, despite it only being a minute away. It was cute, a true gentlemans style.
I remember how all throughout our meal I didn't bring adam up, how we both spoke of exes but how I bit my tongue on my most recent heartbreak.
"And I almost brought him up"
Just as we were leaving i felt Reece had a right to know, he'd told me of his exes after all.
"But then you start to talk about the movies that your family watches, every single Christmas and I won't talk about that for the first time"
Despite it being mid April, he began rambling off about Christmas. It was random, but the way his eyes lit up in childlike wonder sparked an excitement in myself and we began talking and dreaming of the months to come later on in the year.
He told me about his family and how they always watched "home alone" and "the grinch" on Christmas Eve and how him and Lexi woke early to open presents.
"What's past is past"
That was when I finally accepted that Adam was gone, he was out of my life. That was the first time I allowed myself to be happy without him, truly happy, not just the fake happy I put on in front of my family and friends.
A smile lit my face and I realised i didn't need him. I was aware it was early but I knew I was falling for him, hard and fast and I hoped he'd fall with me or catch me in the least.
Adam was in my past, but Reece was my future.
Sorry this was TERRIBLE maybe I should stick with normal imagines😂
