Renesmee and Jacob's Love Story

Chapter 2. The Changes

Chapter 2. The Changes

Renesmee POV

I sat there in my room for hours not leaving my bed, I wrapped my arms around my knees and pulled them to my chest. I had been trying to sort through my feelings, but couldn't seem to get them anywhere. Was I allowed to feel this way about Jacob? Could I allow myself to feel this way? What would change? MAN EVERYTHING WOULD CHANGE. THIS SUCKS! I heard a soft knock on my door and my dad came in. "hey honey, mind if we talk?"

"sure dad, I guess."

He sat on my bed and opened his arms for me to come and snuggle in. I sighed and gave in, I snuggled in really close to my dad, sometimes it felt like, no matter how old I would get, I would always been his little girl, and he was always going to be my daddy.

"Honey I know that this is hard for you. I have been listening for the past 2 hours downstairs, I know this is not easy. But you can get through this. I felt the same in a way when I met your mother."

" Tell me daddy about that, I love hearing about when you and mom met."

"Honey the first time I saw your mother was in a crowded lunch room. It was her first day of school, because she had just transfered from Pheonix. I sat down at the lunch table with your aunts and uncles, and there she was, staring my way. I couldn't believe how beautiful she was, everything about her was beckoning me. She was definately not like any of the other girls that I had seen in my 108 years of existance to that point. I knew that I would never be the same. The first time that we walked together in our meadow was one of the best days of my life. Your mother knew about me, she had figureed out what I was. And it shocked me that she was ok with it. I was ready to fall deeply in love with her. Ready to let myself be happy for the first time in over 100 years. But still I held back, and was cautious. Your mother on the other hand, was not afraid, she knew it was what she wanted and needed, and went into the relationship without looking back. I guess you could say she inspired me to do the same."

"So you were also unsure about loving her?"

"Oh yes, I was afraid that I would not be able to control myself around her. But you are living proof that I could and did." He stroked my hair. I laid my head down on his shoulder and wrapped my arms around his waist.

"Dad, I don't know what I am suppose to do. This is going to change everything. I don't think that I can live without Jacob in my life. I KNOW that I can't. But what are we suppose to do now?" Where do we go from here."

"Honey I know that I put off that I don't like Jacob all that well. But I truely do love him like a brother and a son. He saved your mother numerous times, and has been a perfect friend to us and especcially to you. I will be happy with what ever you decide. But know this. You can love anyone. But you will truely only ever fall in love with someone once."

He leaned down and kissed my forehead. "Get some sleep honey."

"Okay, I love you dad, give mom a kiss for me."

I laid there in my bed wide awake. What did my dad mean when he said "you can only be in love with someone once" ? Was I in love with Jacob? Or did I just love him? I decided to go find out. I krept up from my bed, out of my room, down the hall to jacob's room. He had moved in with us, it just made sense since he was already here 24 hours a day. I opened the door to find Jacob sleeping soundly on his huge bed. I slid in next to him, which is something we did quite often. Ever since I was a baby, Jacob and I would always sleep together. The warmth that was penetrating from his skin felt amazing. I curled up next to him and breathed his scent in deeply. I felt electric current run through my veins. I looked up to find Jacob staring at me. "You okay Nessie? What's wrong?"

"Nothing, I just missed you, and wanted to be near you." He smiled and wrapped his arms around me and pulled me in close. I breathed deeply calming myself down, I felt his lips against my forehead. "Sleep well Nessie, I love you forever."

I usual said it back, but meaning it only as friends. I became a little thing with us, but now could I truely say it? Did I mean it in that way? Did he mean it in that way? I closed my eyes and fell deeply asleep. I was awoken to cracking. I looked around trying to figure out where it was coming from. CRACK! I stared at Jacob, it was him, what was cracking? I realized that it was just his bones resetting and healing. I looked up at Jacob, who was sleeping soundly. A little too soundly, was he snoring? I giggled softly, and look at his face, with a jolt, a love overcame me. I could feel it from the tip of my head, down to the very bottom of my toes. I felt warm and nervous, excited, sick, awed. I looked at his lips, oh his lips! They were slightly parted and full. I started to lean in closer..closer...closer...Oh gosh! What was I doing? I jumped up as fast as I could and ran for it. I ran and ran and ran.