Renesmee and Jacob's Love Story

Chapter 3. Colliding

Chapter 3 Colliding

Jacob POV

She was there, then gone. I opened my eyes suddenly to find Nessie running out of my room. "Nessie?" I ran out of my room and down the stairs, out the front door. "NESSIE!" what was going on? What had happened? What did I do?"

"Nothing" a voice behind me said, I turned to find Edward standing there with his arms folded across his chest. Although that was his angry pose, he didn't look angry.

"I'm not, just worried. Come to the cottage, Bella and I want to talk to you."

I nodded my head and ran to my room, I opened the draw that had held the second most precious thing in the world to me. I pulled it out and put it in my pocket. I was my father's last wish for me to have this, and to give it to Nessie someday. I hoped that today would be that day.

"Come in Jacob" I had my hand raised to the door, but being who was in there, I am not surprised they knew I was coming. I opened the door to see Bella sitting so formally in the living room. The fire was going, it felt nice and loving in there. I knew it was a home that they made together, filled with love and kidness. I only hoped one day...

"Jacob, before you let your mind run wild, do you think we can talk to you about Renesmee?"

"yes, there is something that I want to talk to you about too."

They exchanged glances, and Edward shifted his weight and glared at me. Bella reached up and touched his arm softly. He smiled at her, then looked at me.

"Jacob, I know you are confused by Renesmee leaving like that, but you have to know.."

"Know what?" I persisted

Bella hesistated, then said. "She knows. We told her and she knows now.." I sat there confused? What does she know exactly? "She knows about you, and the imprinting"

I stared at them in shock. "You told her! How could you tell her. I mean..I..uh...I knew...something..was up...but...ah..(sigh)" I lowered my head into my hands. No wonder she was all crazy around me, thats why she left. She must really hate me now. She must never want to speak to me. I know I was sounding like a 15 year old in my head, but I didn't care.

"Quite the opposite Jake. She will kill me for telling you this, but she does love you, she is just confused. She is afraid that things are going to change too much between you two. That you will stop completely being friends, and just want to be lovey-dovey with her, that she will loose her best friend."

"You know that I will always be her best friend first. I love her too much to just let what we have as best friends stop." I knew in my mind that if I started to think what I was wanting to think next, Edward would rip me apart. So I said it before he could. "Edward. Bella. I want to ask you both something."

"Bella put her hand on my knee and patted it. "Jacob you can ask us anything you want."

"Anything?" I asked looking at Edward. He looked at me and I knew he knew what I was going to say next. He nodded for me to continue. " I know that this is completely old fashioned, but I,..uh..." I took a deep breath and began my practiced speech. "I love your daughter with everthing that I am. I have loved her from the first moment I laid eyes on her. You know that, I want to be with her forever. I want to share everything that I am with. I love her so very much. I want to marry her. I am asking you for your permission and blessing to have your daughter's hand in marriage." I ran as fast as I could in my human form. I didn't want to transform in case I found her suddenly. I stopped and tried to smell her. But her beautiful scent was no where to be found. I sat down on the nearest rock. I had remembered earlier hearing from Sam that when you and your imprint finally connect in feelings. You can sense them, and they can feel and hear their thoughts. It made sense, thats why I could hear her and feel her in danger yesterday. I took a deep breath and listened with everything I had. I could hear a faint noise in the far distance. I listened harder, and could hear her crying. I stood up and filled my lungs with the faint smell. I ran as fast and as hard as I could to her side. Why was she crying? Was she hurt? Or worse, did I cause this pain? Her scent became clearer, I knew she was near, but where? Then, there she was, my perfect angel, my everything. I could hear her crying more clearly now. "Nessie? Honey?" I walked over to her slowly and put my hands on her shoulders. "Nessie we need to talk, I need to explain everything to you." She wheeled around and looked at me straight in the eyes. I had never seen her in this much pain. Was it really that awful for her to love me? I started to pull her into me to hug her, but she quickly released from me and walked away.

"There..is...nothing...to...talk...about...I can't do this Jacob. I can't loose you."

I ran to her side, and scooped her up in my arms, I didn't care that she struggled, I had to have her near me. "Ness, how can you even think that. You are never going to loose me. I will never leave you. I love you too much to ever be apart from you. I. Am. Not. Going. Anywhere."

She looked up at me from my arms, he eyes were full of tears and helplessness. We stared at each other for what seemed like forever. I breathed in her sweet smell through my mouth, looked at her with the most loving eyes, then I knew at that moment that I wanted to kiss her more then anything. I put her down and pulled her up again into my arms, closing whatever space there was between us. She looked at me, with what I thought was the same desire I had. I cupped her face in my hands. And ran my fingers through her silky hair. Oh how I loved her hair. I ran my thumb softly over her lips, looking at her with more love then I had ever felt. Her lips parted slightly between my thumb. She smiled her beautiful smile that made me weak in the knees. I leaned my head down slowly, making sure this was slow, so I could make sure this is what she really wanted. She leaned up on her toes and wrapped her arms around my neck. YES! She wanted this too. I had waited my entire life, to feel this way about someone, I had waited years for this moment. The moment that I would final share a kiss with my Nessie. And here we were almost there. Our lips were just an inch from eachother and I could feel her cool breath on my skin. I felt a live wire rush through my body. Could this be happening to me. Could someone this beautiful want to be with me forever? Her lips pressed softly against mine. I felt so much emotion that I thought I would going to pass out. I wrapped my arms around her waist and pulled her into me even closer, if it were possible. The kiss turned from soft and warm to hot and fierce. I felt her wrap her hands up in my hair and hold my head to hers. My hand slid down her back to her butt and I pulled her suddenly up to me. She wrapped her legs around my waist. We fell against a trunk. She was not letting up. I felt the passion inside me surfacing. I needed her more, and I wanted every part of her. And I wanted it now. Suddenly she was gone. I opened my eyes to find her gone. I looked over to her by the river kneeling by the side. What had happened? "Nessie? What's wrong baby?" I sat beside her and put my hand on her back.

"Oh Jacob, I am so sorry. I don't know what I was thinking. I don't know what is going on with me right now."

I felt desperet, Empty. Was she regretting kissing me? "Are you regretting the kiss?"

"Oh Jacob I don't know. It was amazing. But I just don't know."

"What, what don't you know?" I felt the desire to share everything with her. I had to, I had to keep her. "Nessie there is something I want to ask you." She just sat there staring at me. She didn't give me any sign that she wanted me to go on. I was now second guessing myself. Doubt filled my every being. She would never want me. I had lived through rejection once, and it nearly killed me. But I don't think I could do it with her. I felt her soft hand stroke my cheek

"Jake, I am sorry. I was not giving you hope to ask me. What would you like to ask me?"

"No Ness, it's fine. I can wait. Now is not the time."

"Please Jakey" Oh I hated when she called me that. I could never say no to that. I took her hand and pulled her up so we were both standing. I felt so small, even though I was twice her size, I felt small compared to her right now.

"Nessie, I know that this has been a confusing couple of days, and I know that you feel so confused and lost inside. But I want you to know that, (deep breath) you mean the world to me. I cannot live my life without you in it. I cannot go from day to day, I cannot breath unless you are near me. I never want to be apart from you. I love you so much Nessie. You are my best friend. And I make you a promise and vow right now that that will never change. I will always be your best friend. But I want you more then just a friend too, I want you for myself. I want you with me everyday of forever. I love you more then My own life, Renesmee Carlie Cullen, Will you marry me?"

"Jacob I..."