Renesmee and Jacob's Love Story

Chapter 4. thinking Things Through

Chapter 4. Thinking Things Through

Renesmee POV.

Did I just hear him right? Did he just ask me to marry him? MARRY HIM? What...I...."Jacob I...." I couldn't think. What was I going to say to him? I opened my mouth and tried to speak. But nothing was coming out. I could see worry rush over his face. I knew this was killing him. I needed to say something, and fast.

"Jacob, I love you so much, but..I...I need time to think about this. I am not ready for this. I am sorry." I turned and ran as fast as I could. I heard an ear piercing crying howl come from the forest behind me. I tore at my heart. But I knew that I needed to talk to my parents. I made it to the river and was surprised by Alice, and my mom and dad waiting there for me. I stopped abruptly in front of them. I knew that they knew what was going on. I met my dad's gaze, I knew that he knew what was running through my head. "Hi guys" I tried to sound cheerful. But I could feel the sobs coming. Why was I so emotional suddenly? Why was this pulling at my heart? Why couldn't I say yes to Jacob? Dad..what is wrong with me? Why couldn't I say yes? I love him...Shouldn't that be enough? "Nothing is wrong with you honey. Your just not ready for this, and that is perfectly fine."

"I love Jacob with all my heart, and I never want to be apart from him, But I am just not ready to get married. I mean I am only 7! And technically 18, but still."

"Honey" My mom said laughing as she pulled me down to sit on a rock. "I was just like that. When your dad first asked me to marry him, I didn't say yes."

"What?" I stared at my dad, could this be true? My dad nodded with a look, it seemed to bring back a sour memory. "But mom I thought that you loved dad."

"oh honey I did, with all my heart, I still do, and even more. I just wasn't ready or so I thought. I kept telling him that was not one of those girls."

"What made you change your mind?"

"Well..Lots of things. There was a lot of compromising going on between your dad and I" She glanced up at him and gave him a smirk and giggle. He returned the gesture. "Mostly though, when we were going through that tough time of the vampires chasing after me, I kept seeing your father putting himself in danger in order to protect me. And I realized that it was silly of me to postpone. I knew that there was nothing that was going to make it come faster or longer. I realized that I loved him, and that was all that I needed."

"So your saying that I should just say yes, and go along with it?"

"No, no honey. No I am not saying that at all. I am just telling you my experience. This decision has to be made entirely by you."

"Nessie, you know that I can't see you or Jacob clearly in my mind, but I have seen you with someone. I just don't know who that is." Alice leaned down next to me.

"Can you try and see who it is? Meanwhile I need to go and talk to Jake, I feel awful, I just left him there, I didn't explain anything to him, I need to go and explain..." I started to leave but heard the words that would change everything. From the one person that I only knew could say them.

"Nessie he is not there, he left, and I don't see him coming back. Ever."