the bad boy [s.m.]

[21]

Shawn's POV

*Late that same night*

"I'm giving you a ride tomorrow, don't forget." I remind Jen as she's walking out my door.

"Yes, I know. I'll see you tomorrow." She turned around. "I love you."

"I love you too baby." I kiss her and she leaves.

This was one of the best ways to end the night, nothing could've made me happier.

I was just about to head upstairs when I hear knocks again. I go yo open the door when I see the last person I would ever think to see again.

You could say my ex-fling Natalie. Fuck.

"What the hell do you want?" I ask harshly while she just smirked.

"I want you baby." She gets closer touching my chest.

"I don't think so, we ended for a reason now leave please." I say nicely, not wanting this to turn into anything else.

"C'mon baby don't be like that, we could take this to your room like old times, when you would get frustrated." She once again put her hand on my chest, but this time I didn't stop her.

She kissed me, holy fuck she's kissing me, but I'm not pulling back. Shawn what the fuck are you doing pull back, do something.

Her lips were just like I remembered, tasted like kiwi. This isn't what I want, these lips aren't Jennifer's, they aren't soft or plump. This doesn't feel right, I can't do this to Jen, I just got her.

We pull away slowly only to see Jen, on the verge of tears in the distance.

"No.." I whisper pushing Natalie to the side running to Jen, while she stand there frozen. She couldn't believe what was happening, hell I couldn't even believe it.

"Don't touch me." She whispered still wrapping her head around what she saw.

"Baby... please.." I try grabbing her arms, but she yanks them away.

"I said don't fucking touch me and I'm sure as hell not your damn baby." She backed away.

What have I done? What the fuck did you fucking do Shawn? Shit!

"It's not what it looks like at all.. she came on to me p-please believe me."

"No! What I saw was my boyfriend, no actually, ex-boyfriend kissing another girl!" My heart broke.

"Ba- Jennifer, that meant nothing. I love you, not her or anyone else, just you." I grabbed her face in my hands.

"You should've fucking thought about that when you were kissing her." She ran back to her car, getting in as quickly as she could.

I banged on her window several times as she started her car, but nothing was going to change this or what she felt.

I went back to the front door only to see Natalie still standing there, with a smirk on her face.

"Well now that that's over, how about we go upstairs?"

"Leave."

"What?"

"Are you fucking dead?! I said leave! My girlfriend doesn't want to talk to me because of you! She might not even be my girlfriend anymore, because of you! Leave before I do something I regret!" I was so close to her face and I could see the fear in her eyes, Jen never had that fear in her eyes.

"Just remember you were the one that kissed back." She said walking away. 

I hated how right she was, I did kiss back. No one forced me to kiss her, but I did. The night Jen and I confessed our love for each other I kissed another girl right in front of her.

No matter what I say or do, it won't change the fact that I willingly kissed another girl while having a girlfriend.

Jen wasn't just my girlfriend, she was my bestfriend, partner in crime, mom, and girlfriend all rolled into one. My stupid ass lost her!

No, no I have to fix this!

I ran out my house and took my motorcycle straight to her house, even if she wouldn't take me back, I had to make sure she was okay.

I get to her house only to find her in her front lawn, on her knees, crying her eyes out.

This is all your damn fault Shawn!

I go over to her, trying to comfort her, but she instantly pushes me away.

"Get away from me!" She sobs.

"Please, please don't do this."

"You think I want to do this?! You think I want to feel like my heart has just been ripped out! I don't! You make me feel like this! Like I wasn't fucking good enough!"

"You are good enough baby, more than good enough."

"No I obviously fucking wasn't enough! You kissed her! You chose that, now we have to face the consequences of it!" She got up ready to walk away, but I grabbed her wrist.

"Don't throw this away, us." I was on the verge of tears now, the feeling of losing her was hitting me like a truck and I didn't know what to do.

"You did that the moment you kissed her."

"J-just consider taking me back, please."

"Give me time to think, I can't promise you anything, but give me space."

"Okay, I-I love you."

She just looks at me, with pain in her eyes and walks into her house without another word.

This once beautiful and shining girl is now broken, because of the bad boy...