aurora
That night consisted of unknown feelings when i laid in bed and my brain was on full volume. the way they yelled at me but this time about him. the way his touch was still on my mind and his smile. i was so unaware of what it truly meant but i forced myself to sleep.
the darkness from my eyes shut is what keeps me sane and when i open them i am relieved that the sun is creeping from my curtains and it's morning. i sigh when i rub my eyes and let my arms fall on my sides and look around my room. i raise my left hand so it's directly in the rays of the sunlight and it's kissing my skin so gently. a smile spreads to my face and it's the type to make you feel so utterly at ease.
today would be a new day.
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"you what?" madeline questions with shocked and vexatious emotions oozing from her voice.
"with who?" vivian asks just as the same as mads.
"you guys heard me." i say with a small and nervous smile to escape for them to see.
"yeah we did but i think you need to say it again so it can sink in." vivian tells me and madeline nods her head furiously in agreement and i groan when i fall abruptly onto my mattress where they sat as well.
"i spent friday night with grayson dolan and i liked it." i repeat myself.
"yeah no, it didn't work. i'm still shocked." madeline confirms as she stands up beginning to pace in front of my bed near the door.
"didn't you hate this guy like, i don't know, yesterday!" vivian yells at the end and i look off somewhere else not paying attention to how they scold me.
"yeah i did, but i kind of like him now." i admit and madeline looks as if she can explode from utter confusion.
"now when you say "like", what do you mean?" madeline asks and i groan once more and sit up as my hair falls a little over my right eye causing me to tuck it behind my ear revealing the multiple piercings i contain.
"mads if you're intending i like him more than my boyfriend. i don't." i state and she takes a breath of air and sits next to me.
"okay then what do you mean when you say you like him?" vivian asks this time and moves to the next of the two of us.
"when i say i like him i mean it. he's kind and funny and extremely sarcastic but he means well. he's very attentive and observant with people and he tries to hide but he's so vulnerable when he speaks to me. and the way he cares about people who he barely even knows," i go off into a thought and a smile is present on my lips in a way that shows true contentment.
i can feel their stares on me but i don't mind it when i lie about the best parts of him. "aurora you're fucking in love with him." madeline screams in dramatic horror.
"she's got a point, aurora." viv replies and i get up to look out the window instead of them. the sun was already setting and the clouds were beginning to form into my favorite paintings that were in the sky.
"call it what you want but i know i'm not in love with grayson," i start and i finally look at them. "you guys know i admire people, all the time and the way i describe them is always the good first. doesn't mean i'm in love with them." i explain.
"she's a got a point viv, do you remember the way she use to describe hannah montana to us." madeline goes off into the memory and i shove her lightly with a smirk on my face.
"you're so annoying." i tease and she nods in agreement and so does viv.
"okay enough about the dolan boys. let's have fun tonight." vivian states and i agree with the girl who possesses fiery hair and the eyes that hold genuine admiration for me and madeline.
