aurora
( trigger warning for this chapter and some horrible smut at the end ;) )
Behind the darkness when my eyes were closed it brought serenity to my body. and i knew once i opened them it would contain such feelings of harshness and feelings in my stomach to purposely cause me to be fraught. i wasn't in my room but instead in a place of familiarity. the lightly pinked walls that paint the room and the photos that are mounted within them.
i knew after a couple moments i was in vivian's room when confusion washed over me. the unknown thoughts of the night before and the pain in my head and on my left wrist. it's wrapped and feels bruised. i begin to sit up and dizziness begins to be my friend. i release myself from the duvet covers that were wrapped around my body. my legs shook and i attempted to walk myself to the door and to find someone to explain why i was here. but the murmurs from the outside stopped me.
"is she up yet?"
"no i just checked on her like five minutes ago and she's still sleeping."
"well she drank a whole bottle of henny." the person scoffs but in a way that slightly sounds of dissatisfaction.
"not the point madeline. let's just hope she's okay when she wakes up." this signals me to open the door to be faced with the three people who's expression contained of different emotions and almost unreadable actions of what they were about to do. grayson stands with both arms crossed and he stares with worry. the last thing i can truly remember was being in that room with him and the sight of him was bothering.
i didn't want to see him.
vivian and madeline gape at me with both the same faces of dejection and muddling features. "can someone fill me in on why all of us at viv's house and why i'm the only one in her bed while you guys whisper about me outside her door?" i say quite lightly and more in a whisper then i intended to be.
"you're up." grayson states bluntly.
"yeah we covered that. now can someone explain what's going on and why you're all looking at me like that?" i question once more and much harsh.
"so you don't remember anything?"
"obviously not." i mumble now crossing my arms. vivian looks away and madeline glances at her wipe her eyes in the process and speaks up.
"aurora maybe we should all sit down first." she states and immediately my heart drops in the way you would hear the worst news. madeline directs me back to bed where vivian and grayson follow.
"you guys are freaking me out. please just tell me what happened." i say aloud and grayson takes a breath.
"you do remember the fight, right?" he asks and i nod.
"yes." i reply sadly, the memories becoming familiar.
"after our fight when i left i went back downstairs and i was upset. but madeline asked me where you were and i told her i didn't know and i honestly i didn't. viv and mads then kind of ganged up on me to get answers but i went off by myself and that's when i got worried. so i went to go look for you and i couldn't find you at first but when i finally did you were outside and already downed a bottle of hennessy."
"you were fucked up already and i wanted to take you home but you refused to go anywhere with me and then you stared moving your arms more and held up the bottle and i noticed your wrist." this causes me to get uncomfortable quickly. i look away from him now and i feel as if i can't breath when he continues the story.
"you've must have done it when you were in the room and took a bottle and drank it. i was just going to make you come with but then mads and viv found us. they got scared and didn't know what to do and decided to take you to viv's since her parents weren't home and text your dad you were staying over. you fell asleep in the car and didn't wake up until now."
