Everything I Ever Wished For (Aaronica)(Varco)

Chapter 17: Acceptance

This Chapter will be all Aaronica/RonRon. For those who asked me to give more Varco chapters, The chapter next to this will be all Varco.  This chapter is also very important so like yeah

Song:  Empty by Olivia O'Brien
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The next day

Aaron's POV.

Today is the day,  I decided that I'm going to tell Roni about my past.  I know it isn't easy but I trust her.  I just wish if I told her,  she wouldn't hate me,  or she wouldn't be afraid of me.  I called Roni for lunch today,  she said yes.  After lunch I'm planning to tell her everything. Roni and I have something going on between us and its getting stronger every second we're together.  But before this "thing" we have moves to another level I have to tell her this first.  She deserves to know.

Roni's POV.

It was 11 in the morning,  I was getting ready for my lunch with Aaron.  I grabbed a black tank top,  a leather jacket,  skinny ripped jeans and a pair of converse.  I say goodbye to Nessa and went to my car.  I quickly drove to the place where me and Aaron we're gonna meet up,  about 10 mins later,  I arrive.  As I arrive,  I see him sitting on a table,  I walk up to him and he says.  "Well hello there princess".

" Hi." I said as I sat down in the chair across him.  A waiter goes to us and asks our order.  "I'll take 1 fettuccine pls" I said.  "I'll take one lasagna pls" Aaron said.  "Okay any drinks?  Ma'am/sir" The waiter asked.  "I'll take a watermelon cooler" Aaron said. "I'll just have water thank you" I said as the waiter repeats our order and tells us it will be ready in a couple of mins.  A couple of mins later,  our order arrived and we started eating.  "Dang this is good" I said.  "Yeah mine too.  Wanna try? " Aaron asked.  "Sure! " I said as he takes some food and puts it in my mouth.  "Oh my gosh that is good! Wanna try mine? " I asked.  "Yeah" Aaron said as I feed him my food.  "Oh wow that's good" Aaron said.  "Yeah" I said.  "So hey where do u wanna go today? " Aaron asked.  "Idk anywhere.  Where do u wanna go? " I asked. "I wanna go to somewhere private... " I said.  "Oh why don't we go on top of a hill then" I said.  "Okay" Aaron said. 

About 45 mins later we were done and he started to the hilltop we were talking about.  "Oh yeah um Aaron why did u want to go to a place somewhere private? " I asked.  "I have to... Tell u something Roni.... It's important" Aaron said.  "Okay... " I said. "Also you've been quiet the whole car ride what happened? " Roni asked. "I'm just scared...." Aaron said.  "Why? " I asked.  "Because.... It's not easy to tell u this..." Aaron said.  "What is it about?  The thing where u have to tell me? " I asked.  "You'll know later" Aaron said as he keeps driving.  About 12 mins later we arrive at the hilltop we were talking about,  it was an overview of the city that's why we wanted to come here. We sat down  and just looked at the whole place. 

"Beautiful isn't it? " Aaron asked.  "Yeah very.... " I said.  "Roni... I- this thing going on between us is getting stronger every time were together.  I know I'm not the only one feeling it.  I know u feel it too.  That's why before this feelings we have to go to another step I have to tell u something... About my past... That only my parents and Alex knows.  You'll be the first person im gonna tell that is not part of my family.  I decided to tell u this because u deserve to know... I'm kinda scared tho... Cuz u might be scared at me or u might ignore me right after" Aaron said.  "Scared of you?  Oh pls... Try me" I said.

"Okay so... About 3 years ago... Before I started YouTube,  I dated this girl named Kimmy.  Our relationship was going so so well until there's a time where her friend told me she was just using me for my money and tHat she stole from me,  she stole about $200, 000 from my bank account and the same friend told me that she also cheated on me,  and that the cheating has been going on for a year.  I was mad of course cuz the money she stole... I worked hard on  that,  I wasn't born rich, I was born without any money,  any food and other stuff.  I had to work my way up and get money. I was supposed to use that money to give to my family back in the Philippines.  I trusted her,  I loved her,  my first priority was always her,  until it all made sense. Okay now this is the hard part to tell. Before.... I had rlly bad anger issues that no one but Alex knew about.  I got so mad at Kimmy that-" Before Aaron could finish he cleared his throat.  "That what? " I asked.  "... That I almost beat her up to death...Alex arrived and saved her life.  I realized what I've done and regretted everything I did. By the time the girl was in the hospital,  she was rlly in a critical situation...she  was fine after a couple of weeks...but then she decided to do suicide , she hung herself back in her garage. I always thought it was my fault,  if i didn't beat her up...nothing of that would have ever happened. I didn't eat,  I didn't sleep for days.  I couldn't stop thinking about it,  I couldn't help but think that I was responsible for her death.  Alex told me to go to rehab so I did,  I stayed there for about 2 months... Alex visited me twice a week to ask me how I was doing after that... I still have anger issues... But it isn't that bad anymore. The other day... When Kian touched you.... I felt that much of anger again,  I beat him up but good thing it wasn't that bad.  I haven't felt that much anger in about 2 years Roni. You're probably scared of me now.... And you'll probably never talk to me again... But it's fine because I finally told u the truth about me, I'm sorry if u expected more from me and if u don't talk to me again... It's fine I understand" Aaron said as I pull him into a quick hug.  "I'm sorry.... about Kimmy.  It's not your fault Aaron" I said.  "Yes it is! " Aaron said.  "NO IT'S NOT!  u can't ever move on from this if u keep blaming yourself for her death.  Yes you did beat her up but u didn't kill her completely" I said.  "But still- Roni... I let my anger take control against me.  Ever since that I've never had a relationship....because I'm scared that might happen again..... " Aaron said.  "It won't.  You're a different person now Aaron,  you've changed" I said.  "How do u know that?!  How do u know that huh?!  Roni if Alex didn't stop me from beating Kian up I would've finished him!  These anger issues have so much control over me!" Aaron said.  "Then control it" I said.  "I can't! Roni I feel empty every single day of my life ever since that happened. I KILLED A PERSON FOR GOD'S SAKE. I wanted to forget all about it! I wanted to erase my memories but I couldn't!" Aaron  said.  "Yes... You can. You keep telling yourself you can't control it but you can.  If u just look at the positive side of things,  you can" I said.  "Are u even scared of me? Tell me the truth" Aaron said.  "I'm not afraid of you because I know you've changed.  That one that beat Kimmy up... That was the old Aaron.  The one standing right next to me right now is the new Aaron.  I don't care if have a history with rehab, or beating up or anger issues.  All I care about is the person you are now.  Yes it's scary to think about it but Aaron... You've changed.  You can't keep beating yourself up for what you have done because you can't ever change the past.  You have to accept it and learn from it. Learn from your mistake and never do it again.  I know that you're still hurting inside but for that to go away... All u have to do is accept the past" I said. 

"Thank you... Roni" Aaron  said.  "I'm always here for you remember? " I asked.  "Yeah... I can't believe ur actually not scared of me.  Alex is still a bit scared of me he just doesn't want to admit it but you.... You're pretty tough" Aaron said. "Thanks... " I said.  "Yeah... Ugh you dont know how happy I am to finally tell you" Aaron said.  "Me too.  Thank you for trusting me.  It means a lot" I said.  "You're amazing you know that right...ive never met a girl like you.... So rebellious yet so supportive and quirky at the same time.  Roni I rlly don't know how to thank you... " Aaron said.  "You don't have to thank me about anything.  Come here" I said pulling him into a hug as we hug for a couple of mins.  "Why don't lets go to the car and go wherever yeah? " Aaron asked.  "Yeah" I said standing up giving him a kiss in the cheek then go to the car.  I look at him and see him blushing which makes me blush too. 

"What was the cheek kiss for? " Aaron asked and started driving.  "Nothing.... Just wanted to do it.  U were blushing after that werent u? " I asked.  "No wth no.  I never blush" Aaron said denying it.  "Don't worry I think you look cute when u blush" I said.  "So do you" Aaron said as I blush even more. "So where we heading next? " I asked.  "Wherever" Aaron said.  "Okay then" I said as Aaron keeps driving and we have a little road trip.

I'm so glad he opened up to me today it just proves how much he trusts me.  Im not gonna lie it is pretty scary if u think about it but I know he won't do It again.  He's changed for the better.  Just because his past was dark doesn't mean he is now.  When he opened up to me my feelings grew even more thinking that he actually does trust me.  I don't know who's gonna make the first move but I sure want him to. 

And that's Aaron's past!!!!!!  What'd you guys think?  I Think it sad rlly sweet of Roni to still be there for him after what he told her.  I mean imagine being in a situation like that... Wont you feel scared?  Lol anyways I hope u enjoyed this aaronica chapter.  Also I asked u guys again  if U wanted Nessa single or taken and I guess Nessa is gonna be taken soon.  But who will she date tHo??  Marco or someone else???  Idk.  You'll see soon.