Bullied. → Magcon

Chapter 14 // Not Ready

*Olivia's POV*

To day was the day, it was Juliana's funeral. Gilinsky wasn't awake yet, and it had been 5 days. They wanted to get over with it and move on, I think that was best for everyone.

I finished curling the last strand of hair. I walked over to my shoe rack, and out on converse before standing in front of the mirror. I was wearing a black fit and flare dress, black panty hose, and all black converse. I walked downstairs into my living room and began to wait for Shawn. I didn't have a car, but I had my license. The doorbell then rang. I walked over to the door and opened it to see a rather dashing Shawn. He was wearing black jeans, a black dress shirt, and his trusty black vans.

"You look beautiful." He told me, and that was the thing about Shawn. No matter the situation, whatever he would say to me would give me butterflies. I smiled, a frown would be permanently etched onto my face by the end of the day.

"You don't look too bad yourself." I said to him walking out of my house, locking my door, and walking hand in hand to his car. As we walked closer I saw Lauren and Nash sitting together. A lot had happened in the past few days, none of us had gone to school, and Lauren and Nash became a couple. I sat in the front seat and he walked around. He hopped in and we drove off.

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I was already a mess of tears, and in Shawn's arms. We were in the cemetary, watching her grave be lowered into the ground. There was a thud as her coffin hit the ground.

"We now welcome you to throw a handful of soil on the casket." The priest said. I got out of Shawn's grasp and walked forward, I grabbed a handful and threw it in.

"Goodbye, I love you and miss you so fucking much." I whispered before turning away and inspecting everyone. My eyes landed on Carter, his eyes were blood shot, he had tear stains running down his cheeks, bags under his eyes, he probably hadn't slept in the past few days. I didn't either, but at least I had concelear. He looked up at me and I glanced away. I walked over to where I was previously standing, and waited for Shawn to finish. He came over.

"Can we go now?" I mumbled. He nodded his head, we began to walk towards the car. We arrived at his car, I entered and he circled around. I pulled out my phone and texted Lauren.

Olivia- Me and Shawn are heading home now, you're going to have to find a ride with someone else.

Lauren- Kay.

We we're driving down the street, and Shawn put his hand on my leg. He began to draw circles on it.

"It's going to be okay." He told me. I just smiled faintly, we've gotten really close. I like him a lot. We always cuddle and kiss, but I don't know if I'm ready to be more. He pulled into my driveway and parked his car. We got out of the car and walked towards my door, I unlocked it but stood there before walking in.

"Can you stay the night?" I questioned him. He nodded and we entered my house. We kicked our shoes off. "Go upstairs, I'll be right there."

He walked off, while I went to my kitchen. I grabbed two rootbeers and a bag of chips, Jalapeno to be excat. I walked up stairs, and entered my bedroom. Shawn had chnged into some sweats he left here last night. I placed my things on my bed and grabbed my laptop from underneath it, I placed it onto my bed.

"Choose a movie on netflix, but no scary movies." I told him, trying to be as serious as I could. I grabbed a random tanktop, and some grey sweats. I walked toward my bathroom, washed my face, put my hair into messy bun, and changed. I walked out to see Shawn lounging on the centre of my bed with the laptop on his lap. I placed my clothes in the hamper, and walked over . I layed beside him, and snuggles into his chest. He held his arm on the other side of me, protectively, almost like someone was going to take me. He started the movie.

The title sequence came along, he chose The Heat. I've watched this movie so many times, but I still liked it.

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We were half way through the movie and I was bored. I decided to waste the time by examining Shawn. I looked up from my position. He had the perfect skin, a perfect jawline, even the lazy eye, and scar was perfect. Everything about him was perfect. I think I was falling for him, more and more each day. I couldn't help but laugh on the inside at the way he was staring so intently at the movie, trying to soak in as much as he could. He glanced down at me and blushed.

"What?" He asked chuckling.

"Nothing." I told him smiling.

"There wasn't any reason you were staring at me for so long." He tried reasoning with me.

"Maybe the fact that your just so perfect." I told him bopping his nose.

"Well, you are too." He said, he bent down and kissed me, I kissed back while sitting up. I didn't break the kiss, while I climbed onto his lap straddling him. He sunk into the bed deeper, so that he was almost laying down. I was still on top of him. He broke the kiss and looked up at me, examining me.

"Olivia, will you be my girlfriend?" He asked me, I said I wasn't sure about it before, but I was now. I bit my lower lip, while nodding and resumed the make out session.

Things started to get heated. I pulled his shirt off, he did the same in return. This left him shirtless and me in my bra. He brought his hands to the waist band of my pants, I helped him slide them off. He tugged on my lower lip making me release a throaty groan. I reached my hand towards his pants, I pulled them off, there was some tension at first. I looked down to see the problem and was met with a bulge.

That was when it dawned on me, I can't do this.

I broke the kiss, and sat up off of him.

"I can't do this." I told him before I broke into tears.

"Hey, it's okay." He told me, while rubbing my back and sitting up.

"It just doesn't feel right, we went to our best friends funeral today." He just nodded, we both got under the covers, considering since it was twelve, we decided to go to sleep early. I snuggled into his warmth while he held me in his arms. "I love you no matter what Olivia."

"I love you too, Shawn." I replied before drifting off to sleep.

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There is the chapter that has been a week in the making, I just didn't have any ideas.

K bye.

Leila.