True Love Or Giving Up?(Matthew Espinosa)

Chapter 16

I woke up and decided to make everyone breakfast. I started making pancakes, bacon, hashbrowns, and eggs. I woke up the guys and told them to just sit and relax. I finished cooking and poured Ricky, Connor, and Trevor orange juice. I poured Jc, Sam, and Kian milk. I poured me some chocolate milk. I grabbed Connor's first then Ricky's, them Trevor's, then Jc's, then Sam's, then Kian's. I grabbed mine and sat between Connor and Ricky.

"Sky breakfast is amazing! Thanks for making it!" Ricky said.

"Yea babe this is great!" Kian said.

"Absolutely amazing!" Sam said.

"Perfect!" Jc, Trevor, and Connor said.

"Thanks guys! You guys are too sweet!" I said.

"We know," They said. I took all of our dishes and started washing them.

"Sky you are the sweetest," Kian said.

"I know,'' I said. We sat and watched Tv when my phone started ringing. I looked and saw it was Matt. I got up and walked outside and answered the phone.

"Hello?" I asked.

"Hey," He said.

"What do you want?" I asked.

"The girl of my dreams back," He said.

"You chose her," I said.

"I wanted her but I need you," He said.

"Why do you need me?" I asked.

"You are the one for me. You make me the happiest. You make me feel like its just me and you," He said.

"A lot of people feel that way when they are with me Matthew," I said.

"Not the way I do," He said.

"I got to go Matthew," I said and hung up. I walked back inside and went to Kian's room. I grabbed my bag and grabbed black short shorts and a loose white crop top with the words dope in baby blue. I grabbed my high tops and put them on. I walked downstairs while texting Carter.

   To: Carter :)

  Hey baby cakes I was wondering if you could come pick me up so we could hang out.

I sat back down on the couch with the boys. Carter texted me back.

From: Carter :)

Yea! Your at the O2L house right?

To: Carter :)

Yes! I'll see you in a few!

"Hey guys I'm hanging out with a friend today and I don't know what time I'll be back or if I'll be back tonight," I said.

"Ok just text us or call us and let us know," Sam said. After a few minutes of just talking with the guys I got a text from Carter saying he was here.

"Ok guys I'm leaving! I love you guys!" I said.

"Love you to!" They yelled. I walked out and jumped in the car. I hugged Carter and kissed his cheek.

"Where to love bug?" He asked.

"We can hang out at your house Honey!" I said.

"Alright love muffin," He said. We drove to his house and watched a few movies.

"What do you wanna do now?" He asked.

"We can go swimming!" I said.

"Ok!" He said. I remember I left my black and purple bikini at his house. I got changed and walked downstairs. I noticed he was already in the pool. I walked out and sat on the chair.

"Get you ass in this pool!" He said.

"No," I said. I put on my sunglasses and closed my eyes. I felt him pick me up.

"Carter!" I screamed. He threw me into the water. I came back up and started pouting. He jumped in and swam up to me. I wrapped his arms around me and kissed me. I kissed back but when I did all of these things popped into my mind. My mind was telling me I was a slut and thats all I'll ever be. Telling me I might as well be a hooker. I pulled away and Carter looked confused. I got out of the pool and wrapped a towl around my body. I grabbed my phone and ran inside. I went to the guest bedroom and cried.

"You are nothing but a whore! Im shocked you don't have an std. but then again you are ugly I dont understand how people find you attractive." my mind kept saying which made me cry harder. My life sucks! My parents are getting a divorce, my brother keeps going back to a bitch who dont make him happy, and my other brother is never around anymore since he's married. I've always thought about doing one thing but I've always been too scared. I've always wanted to get high. Is that bad? If it is I dont care honestly. My friend showed me how to do everything for when i finally wanted to. Even gave me the drugs. I pulled it out of my bag and rolled one up. I found ths lighter in my bag. No im not about to smoke this in his house. I put it somewhere safe and changed clothes. Once I was dressed and had my shoes on I went downstairs.

"Carter i need you to take me somewhere," I said.

"Ok where?" He asked.

"The O2L house," I said.

"Ok," He said. We got in the car and he drove.

We pulled up to the house and I hugged Carter. Once I got inside I saw all the guys sitting on the couch.

"Guys I have a serious question," I said.

"Ok ask it," Sam said.

"Can I get high in your backyard?" I asked. They all looked at each other and started talking. They all looked at me.

"Yes you can go get high in our backyard," Kian said. I ran out back and pulled it out. I grabbed the lighter and lit it. I put the blunt between my lips and inhaled the good shit and exhaled the bullshit. It felt amazing. After a while it went out. I was high up in the clouds. I walked back inside and looked at myself in the mirror. My eyes were red as fuck! I walked to living room.

"Kian im sleeping with you tonight. Goodnight you guys," I said laughing. I walked up to Kian's room and stripped out of my clothes. I grabbed one of Kian's shirts and crawled in bed. I heard Kian come in. He stripped out of his shirt and pants and got in bed. He pulled me closer to him with my back pressed against his chest and my ass on his lower region.

"Good night baby," He said.

"Good night," I said.  After that I was out cold.

Author's Note

I know it sucks but I really wanted to update!