The Pack

Love Isn't Enough

"I'll come back I promise," she said as she worked on packing her last suitcase. I sat on her bed and watched as she walked from her closet to her bed with a purpose. She was avoiding returning my stare and focused extra hard on her intentions. It was crazy how quickly things in someone's life could change and the person who made you the happiest could end up being the one you hurt the most.

"For reason I don't believe you Leah. Are things that bad here that you have to leave?" I asked and she paused for a second and stood in front of me with her hands on her hips. She looked at me as if I'd lost my mind. She was wearing her baggy grey sweat pants and black cami top. Her hair was bunched up on her head in a messy bun, yet she still looked beautiful.

"Jake, they were bad … that's why I applied to college to get away and to better myself. At the time it made sense for me to go away and honestly it's still the smart thing for me to do." She ran her fingers down the side of my face and cupped my cheek. She smiled at me but I knew Leah far better now. I knew when she was hearting. Her heart had finally started to heal and just as it seemed it would mend fully fate saw fit to screw the both of us.

"You promised that we'd save each other." I was pretty much accusing her of lying. This summer had been great. We'd connected in a way that I'd never thought possible. I'd known Leah for years and it wasn't until now that I'd realized that we have so much in common. I would never forget the midnight strolls on the beach or my attempts of teaching her to play basketball. Leah was soft and a really deep thinker, not only that she was amazing in bed, I mean AMAZING in bed. She was everything that I'd ever seen myself wanting in a woman and she'd been right under my nose my entire life. I damned fate for thinking that if knew my heart better than I did.

"Jacob, you've imprinted on Ness. I know you don't feel like you love her now, but you will grow to love her and I'll become a distant memory. I don't know if … don't see why I have to leave?" She stared at me with sadness in her eyes and it wasn't until then that it dawned on me. This thing between us that was fueled by lust and salvation had morphed into love. That's why I couldn't let her go and that's why she wanted to leave. She knew that in the end my heart would belong to another and she didn't want her heart to get broken.

"Leah, I love you and right now you're everything to me." I got up and went to wrap my arms around her and she took a step back. She held her hands up using it as a stop sign her eyes were wide with shock and sadness. She closed her eyes, I assumed to regain composure. I took my hand, connected it with hers, but she quickly pulled away and put both her hands behind her back.

"That's a lie Jacob. I'm actually shocked you're standing here with me now. You'd already started to prefer the child's company to mine and it's okay, it's not your fault really. Fate has just dealt me a shitty hand." A tear dropped down her cheek and she quickly wiped it away. She went to turn away from me in the reflection of her vanity mirror I saw her pick up her plane tickets and toy with them.

"I do love you Leah," I repeated, she scoffed. More of her tears fell and she swallowed hard. She tapped her fingers on the dresser nervously and was silent for a while before she spoke again.

"I love you too, but it's not enough in this case. Love just isn't enough." She approached me quickly and placed her lips on mine, crushing against me. I gripped her tightly in a bear hug and tried to match her fervor. She twisted her fingers into my hair and cried as we continued to kiss. She straddled me and it seemed that we were going to converse the way we knew best. I began pivot and grind beneath her showing her my want for everything her mind and body possessed. This was our goodbye, she said she'd be back but I knew better. She pulled away from me before we got to hot and heavy. She let out a few quiet dry heaves and went back to packing.

"I have to go Jacob, but I'll be back I promise." Her body was still shaking but I knew that embracing her again would only make her more upset.

"And you'll return to me?" I asked.

"I don't think you'll want me Jake, but if it makes you happy I'll say the words. Yes, Jacob I'll come back to you." I didn't believe her because she had no faith with me, but again I couldn't blame her.

"Can I help you pack and then we could go to the beach? What do you say Leah will you have a little fun with me … one more time?" Leah went back to her closet and pulled out another suitcase.

"You can clear that drawer over there." I moved quickly over to her dresser and realized that it was mainly her unmentionables some of which I've seen before. I knew she'd sent me over on purpose.

"I think I remember this." I picked up her pink boy short panties and twirled them around my pointer finger. She looked over at me long enough to roll her eyes at me.

"Keep them there are the closest you'll ever get to being with me like that again." All of a sudden my heart became heavy. "Hey, I didn't say it to be mean. Due to recent events … it would be wrong for us to lie together. I would feel like I was your mistress of something, but I can give you this night for us to reminisce on our time together and then we'll part way. Deal?" She gave me her hand and I begrudgingly took it. It was all she would over so I had no choice but to take it.