The Pack

The Tutor

I decided to come home for the fall break. I'd started to think it was huge mistake. Everyone seemed pretty happy to see me. It had been four years since I'd been home and I was happy that Jacob and Sam were both keeping their distance. I only felt guilty about one of them. Jacob had come to visit me while I was in college and he was perfect. It hurt me to turn him away again. At the time he was taking the imprint thing so lightly. From the few times that I'd seen him while I'd been home I realized that I'd made the right decision. Little Ness was looked like a preteen and she was enamored with Jacob. Jake seemed to love all of the attention. After Christmas I focused hard on getting my applications ready for my masters. I was about to graduate in the spring and I knew I couldn't come back here to live. I needed more time. I needed more space. So that's why I was in the old school that they had turned into a library on my laptop with my headphones in as I finished yet another paper explaining why I wanted to participate in another college's masters program. I hit ctrl S and closed my document and started surfing the net when I smelled him and her.

"Dammit," I murmured so much for peace and quiet. I swear the town of Forks was way too small. No matter where you went you always end up bumping into someone you know.

"Hey Leah," Jacob said casually. I noticed that the look he used to give me was no longer in his eyes. Matter of fact he tried not to look at me at all. I'm sure that he'd long forgotten about what we had shared.

"Hey Jake, Ness, what are you doing here?" I asked as I closed my laptop and gathered my things. I most definitely wasn't staying if they were going to be here. It was just a reminder that Jacob would soon be taken.

"Jacob is studying for his SATs! He's hoping to go to college and study architecture." Ness was so proud of him as she offered him a side hug. I was proud too but I was sure it didn't matter to him. Jacob always said that he wasn't interested in furthering his education but it seems something had changed his mind. I don't know how many times I'd told him that he was smart and go to school to make himself more marketable. It seemed my words weren't enough but something or someone else did the trick.

"That's great Jake," I tried not to sound dry but I knew he was probably bettering himself for her. "If there's anything I can do to help let me know."

"Actually, I could use a math tutor. I'm decent on the literature but math is causing me mad frustration," he chuckled.

"Okay, I can do that. I can meet you here tomorrow?" I hopped up and draped my backpack over my shoulder. As I walked toward the exit, told myself not to look back, but I did anyway. I watched as Ness grabbed his hand and lead him down one of the aisles. I closed my eyes and willed my heart not to respond. It didn't matter he's not why I came back anyway.

The next day Jacob and I decided to use one of the old school rooms to work in. He gave me a couple of the math problems that he was having trouble with and I worked them out on the chalkboard.

"Dammit, see I keep getting it wrong. I need to master this math is gonna be an important part of my major," Jake said as he handed me his attempt and then he looked at board.

"You keep forgetting to do what's in the parenthesis first!" I fussed. "It's the order of operations Jakey." I sat back on what used to be the teachers desk and looked at him with his back turned to me.

"I detect foul order it resembles … ah yes it's the stench of jealousy," Jacob sniffed the air. "And it's coming from you. Tell me why you're so jealous of a kid that's barely reached puberty Leah? You're not allowed to be jealous because you pushed me away remember. Twice!" He went back to the desk he was at and flipped through his book. He actually seemed angry and there was the ping of guilt I had felt from before. I looked away from him and twirled the piece of chalk that was in my fingers.

"Let's try this one so I can see if I've got this down," Jacob said and I went over to his desk and leaned over his shoulder to look at the problem. I noticed that he took the moment to look down my shirt and even though I shouldn't have been happy about it I was thrilled. That meant he remembered me and that on some level he still wanted me. It was against our laws to do anything to break an imprint or disturb the path or connection between the two, but I still wanted Jacob so much. I made it hard to concentrate on anything else when he was around.

"Okay," I said as I moved away from him and back to the chalkboard." After a few seconds I felt him behind me. He ran his hands down the sides of my body and begrudgingly pushed him away. I didn't want to. I missed the way his hands felt on my body. His touch made me hungry it made yearn for him.

"I can smell your arousal Leah. You still want me yet you play these games." He turned me towards him and I knew my desire was evident. It had to be because I could feel my pulse quicken and my blood rush to my face.

"It's not a game. If we do this … I'll be shunned forever. Most of our tribe has a problem with me now imagine how they would feel if I went against our laws. You know I want you … God I do but I can't … fate chose and it picked Renesmee!" As I talked Jacob pressed himself against me and ran his nose and his lips along my neck and then my collarbone. "Please." I panted and dropped the chalk I didn't realize I was still holding it. Just as I was about to lose control someone opened the doors and caused Jacob to part from me.

"Sorry we thought this room was empty," the stranger said as he closed the door. After they left I gather my stuff and put in my bag.

"You're leaving? Typical Leah." I could hear the sorrow in Jake's voice. "You're always running from me Leah or pushing me away. Why? If I'm what you want can't you just accept me? I want you Leah … I want you so much," he whispered. All I could do was shake my head. His words they didn't matter. Imprints couldn't be broken and with each passing year Jake and Ness got closer. I was sure that the next time I came to Forks I would be a distant memory in Jacob's mind.