The Pack

I Want All of You

Leah's POV

I finished my article for this week two days ago and finished editing for my team earlier this morning. So now I was bored sitting in my gorgeous living room with a cup of cocoa listening to the rain hit my roof. I sighed as I cut my laptop back on. I could get a jump on next week. I was thinking about gearing my next article on soul mates and determining if people were truly fated to be together. I was sure that I would be able to find some sort of proof to verify the theory true. Some people are just born for each other. Renesmee was born for Jacob she was meant to possess everything that would draw him in and yet he keeps tormenting me.

"I want all of you."

Of course he wanted all of me. I practically hopped into his lap. It was free easy sex and Jacob wasn't stupid but then Ness came over and I disappeared because she needed him. It was a clear message that I was slapped in the face with and I would never forget.

"So soul mates …," I mused aloud as I thought of the proper way to start this article. I figured I would start how I thought I had a soul mate and was crushed when I found out that I simply wasn't good enough for him. I felt used. "This really isn't relevant for my article," I grumbled to myself and started to delete what I'd typed. Then I saw headlights as someone entered my driveway. I looked at the clock on my laptop it was barely 8:00PM. Who would be visiting me at this hour? I hoped up and opened the door and saw the silver pickup in my driveway. Against my wishes my damned heart skipped a beat. I noticed the white plastic bag in his hand. As he strolled to my front door.

"Hey," I forced myself to speak.

"Hey, your mom sent this." He handed me the bag and I immediately understood he wasn't here to see me he was here running an errand.

"Thanks," I turned to walk inside and he surprised me by following me inside and sitting on my couch.

"So how is work going?" He asked and I looked at him confused.

"Good, I'm pretty much finished for the evening," I answered as I moved into the kitchen to unload mom's goodies into my fridge. I took one of the containers out and then noticed the other said "Jake" on the top of the container. I took the container back out to him.

"So you didn't stay for dinner?" He took the container and then stared at me as if I'd asked a stupid question.

"No, I needed to talk to you. That's really the only reason I went over to Sue's tonight," he answered and he had the most sincere look in his eyes. I had a good feeling I knew where this conversation was headed. I sat down ready to let him say his piece. "Leah, do you love me?" Now that was something I wasn't expecting.

"What?" I was sure my face appropriately showed the horror I felt by being asked this question.

"Do you love me?" I didn't know what to say I opened my mouth a couple of times to respond but nothing came out. "Okay, let me try it this way. Leah, I have been alone for seven years because I haven't been able to get over you. You are the only woman I've ever been in love with. I want to know if you love me too." I swallowed hard hearing him say all that fluff really got to me but I was about to hit him with some old school reality.

"What about Bella?"

"I was young and infatuated with her and you quickly changed my focus." He snickered if I knew him he was remembered our first time. It was crazy for us to think sex would be our salvation in the end I think we were both just sad and horny.

"Jake what about Renesmee?" I asked because she was his reality and his future.

"Ness is happy with your brother! I need for you to let go of you insecurities about that girl. I told you once already that I viewed her like a little sister," he protested and rolled his eyes annoyed.

"But she will always come first. Jake we were … busy and she knocked and you forgot I was there," I whined and I knew I sounded like a big baby. "I refused to be second in anybody's life. I would want to come first."

"I thought I always made sure you did," he smirked seductively and it was my turn to roll my eyes I sat down in my recliner and held my head in my hands. Why was he doing this? I didn't want to think about old times and I didn't want to give into temptation only to be pushed aside.

"Jake, it would never work. I would always be wondering when Ness would realize that she made a mistake and she wants you. You would allow her to fall into your arms because that's what you've been programed to do," I explained and Jacob got up and his hands had started to shake. Damn he was really pissed.

"Leah, you think you know so damned much about the situation! You think that Ness didn't me? Like expected she did have a small crush but it ended because I wasn't interested. Seth came into the picture, any little glances she gave me vanished and I was more than fine with that. I never had any of those feelings towards her because for all these years I've been hung up on you!" He was damned near yelling at me. He paced back and forth in front of me and I started at him with wide curious eyes. He was trying to calm himself and I refused to say anything until he did so.

"Leah, I love you I never stopped and I never will stop loving you. I just want an answer to my question. Do you love me?" He looked at me with vulnerability in his stare.

"You know the answer to that question Jake," I murmured and he approached me and stood right in front of me.

"No I don't," he countered. "I wouldn't have asked if I knew."

"I … don't do this to me Jacob. Can't we just …" I started to talk and he approached me quickly and covered my mouth with his hand.

"If you finish that sentence with be friends I fear I will have the urge to rip your head off! No Leah we can't be friends because I LOVE you and I need to hear you feel the same!" He fumed he was so puffed up and he was breathing so heavy. I hated to say it but this version of Jake was pretty hot … it may be the hottest form of him I've ever seen. My line of vision wander to his lips … God I wanted them on me. Why did he have to imprint anyway? The elders said it was a rarity but it seemed most of the people that phased ended up paired with somebody. It seemed someone got their information screwed up.

"I can smell your desire for me Leah," he murmured as he pressed himself against me. At least I wasn't the only one worked up. He lowered his hand from my mouth and rubbed his nose against mine. "This time there won't be any interruptions." Before I could protest he placed his lips on mine. I didn't have it in me to fight him. I needed this too much. So we stood in the middle of my living room all hands, tongues, and heavy breathing. I was so close but not close enough. I could feel my internal heat blazing and setting fire to insides as our lips continued their tortured dance.

"I want all of you Leah," he whispered before picking me up and carrying me to my bedroom. It seemed like my seven year drought would soon be over.