The Pack

The Omega and The Alpha

I still felt his arms around me as I drove into the darkness. It was a windy rainy night and I just couldn't stand to be in Forks any longer. I had decided I wouldn't come back until fate had run its course.

"Shit," I muttered as my eyes started to tear. My eyes were blurring so badly that I had to pull off to the side of the road. I banged my hands repetitively on my steering wheel as I allowed myself to sob. It isn't fair, those words kept repeating in my head. Everything that Jacob had meant to me was over. I wished I could feel empty because the pain of having this happen again was just too much.

"I just need to be alone to figure all this out. I need to start over," I whimpered as I tried to calm myself, however the memories of Jacob. His touch, his smile, and the way he used to look at me with such love in his deep brown eyes caused me to only cry harder.

"I can't stay here," I muttered. I was crying just as hard as the rain falling from the skies. My hands shook as I went to start my car again and move away from the place that had caused me such pain but before I could take off my car door swung open and I was being pulled from my car. Jake scooped me up in his arms. His touch, his caress, was so warm and said everything I wanted it to. It said I want you and I need you. It told me to stay close and let me possess you. There was nothing like wrapped up in Jacob's arms.

"Jake," I muttered and it was all he allowed me to say before covering my lips with his hungrily. He kissed me with such passion. He gripped at my shirt as he kept our bodies flushed together. The heavens showered us tiny tear like raindrops as we shared yet again what I assumed would be our last kiss. I wished with all my might that I didn't have to pull away, because once we pulled apart that would be it. I wasn't coming back at least not until Renesmee was grown.

We finally pulled apart the sorrow in his eyes matched mine. "You don't know what you're doing to me right now Leah Clearwater. You're taking my heart and breaking it into a million pieces. Once you realize that this imprint isn't the end of us come back to me. I want you to love me Leah just as much as I love you." He placed his forehead against mine.

"I hope you feel that way seven years from now Jacob, but until then I need some time alone." I caressed the side of his face and kissed his cheek before returning to my car. This time I drove away and reframed from shedding tears. Somehow I gained peace in knowing that he would be missing me as much as I missed him if even for just a little while.

6 years, 11 months, and two weeks later …

I looked around my empty apartment. I couldn't believe I was doing this. I done everything to move on, but I was going back. I couldn't pinpoint exactly why maybe it was my curiosity that had drawn me back. All I know was that my mother called me a little while back letting me know that the Cullens were finally leaving Forks and I was home sick. I had gotten my masters and a pretty fabulous job, but my heart was at home. I was fortunate enough that my boss rearranged my job so that I work from anywhere really. I sighed as I put the last of my things in the moving truck. I waved the driver off. I was coming behind him.

"You're making a mistake Leah," I murmured to myself as I looked around my empty place. I grabbed my keys out of my pocket. It was too late to turn back now all of my stuff was on its way to Forks. I got into my little black Corolla and started her up. As I started my long drive I thought about the one thing that I was dreading.

"I'm sure he's moved on," I murmured. The last time I'd seen them together I could already see that Ness had started to look at Jake was love and admiration. Part of me felt like I needed to see it. I needed to see him happy with someone else so that I could finally move on. I'd been away for almost seven years and I hadn't been one single date. I'd had offers but I kept comparing them to Jake and by comparison they just weren't good enough.

"Who needs a man anyway?" I muttered and wiped my tears. I had everything else I wanted in my life. There is a saying that life isn't supposed to be perfect. So that would be the one thing my life was missing. I just had to remind myself that having that one thing wasn't that important. "Starting now this very moment I'm done with the fairytale," I declared to only my car and the night sky. It wasn't going to be that hard to uphold the declaration considering that Jacob was probably moving with Renesmee out of Forks. "I'm so done." I pressed a couple of buttons and allow Pandora to be my DJ for the long ride home. Unfortunately since it was kind of late it filled my car with love songs but it was okay. The reality was I had loved in my past and the fact that I had experienced love made my job a little easier. How could I successfully write a romantic advice column if I'd never experienced the good, bad, and ugly? I'd just had to deal with too much ugly. So in my columns and through my physiological studies I've made it my job to make sure that other women don't suffer my fate of living alone and having to relinquish the love of their life to someone else. Those who can't love teach.

I was glad I'd decided to move at night. I loved driving on an empty road and a clear night sky. By sunlight I would be in my new home only five miles away from the res. I would get to embrace my mother and brother. I would see all the faces I'd missed over the years. I could only hope that they would be just as happy to see me as I was to see them.