The Pack

Happiness

Leah's POV

"So this is the space for our farewell party," Renesmee said dryly as she showed me around the garden scene and hardwood floors of the one of Washington's best hotels. I didn't know how I got dragged into this … oh that's right Jacob. He was supposed to be filling in for Seth but he had to review something with Quil at work and I was hypnotized by his wet nakedness as he came out of the shower as he asked me for a favor. Obviously this wasn't the favor I thought he had in mind. I shook of the thought and watched Renesmee. I couldn't believe that I was spending a whole afternoon with the being that inadvertently caused me a great deal of struggle in my life. Jake has been wanting us to do the double date thing with Seth and her, he was sure that I'd like her. I didn't know about that. I had to admit it was a little hard for me to believe that Jake was never attracted to her. She was really pretty, very much like her mother except her big brown eyes were and curly copper hair. I constantly wondered how he managed to stay focused on me all these years.

"I feel it's pointless to have this party. I would just like something a bit more intimate. I know that Seth would probably prefer to hang out with his family and have one of Miss Sue's dinners. I know that's what I would want." I nodded I agreed.

"We could always do both. I'm sure my mom would love to throw something together," I said numbly. She turned and looked at me and offered me a little smirk.

"This is killing you isn't it?" We were interrupted by one of the gentlemen from the hotel handing her the bill for the event. She was doing Carlisle a favor since he was called into work for an emergency surgery. She signed off on all the paperwork and then the disappeared and we walked to the car in silence.

"I hate when people don't answer my questions," she sighed and started the car but left it in park.

"You asked if 'this' is killing me, but I'm not one hundred percent sure I know what you're talking about." I was being intentionally obtuse. If she was anything like me she'd hate that too.

"Why won't you go on a double date with your brother and me?" I rolled my eyes obviously Jacob has been talking to her.

"I'm a little old for double dates … it's been years since Jacob and I were together I'd rather spend my time with him by myself." I watched as she weighed what I said in her head.

"That's your fault though. I was actually a little pissed when I heard you were coming back here. Jacob and I are really close." I scoffed out my laughter.

"No kidding," I griped bitterly she glared at me for a moment.

"Anyway, I couldn't see how he held such a torch for you when you hurt him so badly," she snapped in her special quiet tone. I was in shock and I laughed a little bit. I refused to be the villain in this when I felt my intentions were selfless. I left so Jacob could be happy and so I wouldn't be hurt.

"He knew why I had to leave. It wasn't like I did myself any favors either. I hurt myself and even though it seems kind of pointless now I still feel it was necessary. I needed to make sure I wasn't hurt again. I still don't get how he broke his imprint to you … but I'm not going to complain because … I'm the happiest I ever been in my entire life." Renesmee seemed really confused she glanced over at me a couple of times and a look of realization hit her eyes.

"So you left because of me? Jake never told me why. He always said you ran because you were scared to trust him." She cut the car off and now I was a little pissed. I was ready to go. I didn't need this stroll down memory lane. Nothing but depression comes from my past.

"He was right for the most part. I was scared because of how much I cared about him. I knew I loved him when I left. I couldn't watch him fall in love with someone else before my eyes. I knew I would try to cling to him … my love would turn into obsession and then I would turn back into the woman he held me grow out of. I needed to leave so he could have the life the heavens designed for him. I didn't know that he was so determined to be with me." I held my hand to my chest my heart felt so full and heavy. I went into another world and when I resurfaced into the land of the living Renesmee was looking at me as though I lost my mind.