RIDE OR DIE ➸ OSCAR DIAZ [1]

FIVE

"I CAN'T BELIEVE I'm saying this," I scoff as I walk through the front door, tears stinging my eyes. The entire walk back to my house I tried my hardest to keep my tears in. Oscar called me all those sweet names yesterday and today, it was like someone flipped a switch in him. "But you were right Ruby." My voice shakes and my hand almost instantly flies to my mouth.

"What do you mean?" Ruby asks with furrowed eyebrows, standing up from where he's sitting at the table. Abuelita gives me a curious look and I simply shake my head.

I let my hand drop from my mouth and shrug, avoiding his eyes. "What do you think?" I say bitterly before rushing into my room. I slam the door shut, and sit down on the ground with my back pressed against it. Silent tears roll down my cheeks and I angrily wipe them away. Why am I crying over him? He's just a cabròn.

"Camilla, what happened?" Ruby asks as he frantically knocks on my door. "I'm assuming it has something to do with Oscar. Do you want me to call Samuel? Or Mario?"

"No, just leave me alone Ruby." I sniffle, pulling my knees up to my chest. I bury my head in between my knees, trying my best to silence my sobs.

"Your quote on quote relationship, barely started and you're already crying over the guy?! Just say the word and I'll go kick his ass Cami!" Ruby exclaims, punching the door. But he winces in pain afterwards.

I don't even have enough strength to laugh at him. I just cry. No matter how much I want to stop crying I can't. I don't want to be upset over him. Why am I upset over him? It's not like we're together, he said so himself. And it's not like there was anything there. He was just flirting with me last night. He's good at that. I should've just listened to Mario but no, I had to go do something stupid. The day's not over until I do something stupid.

My phone buzzes in my pocket, startling me for a quick second. I sniffle and wipe some of my tears away and pull it out of my pocket.

Cesar💪
iMessage
Saturday, August 27th. 1:30 pm.

don't mind my brother. he's got a bit of a temper.

yeah. I noticed.

he wouldn't stop talking about you all morning
and last night he woke me up when he came back to obsess over you
I've never seen my brother like this
he really likes you Camilla

he sure has a funny way of showing it.

he gets worked up over little things easily. after being around him for a while you'll get used to it

I don't think I want to be around him.
I gave him his chance last night and today, he went and blew it.
the funny thing is that he actually convinced me that he was different.
I can't believe I fell for it.

different from he-who-must-not-be-named right?

yes.
and thank you for not saying his name.

I gotchu
Oscar is nothing like him, I promise
does he know about him?

no.
and I don't plan on telling him.
so you better not say anything.

dw, I'm not Jamal
you can tell him when you want to

okay then he's never going to know bc I'm not going to talk to him ever again.

don't be like that Camilla

bye Cesar.

Camilla!

"MIJA COME EAT dinner." My mom says through my closed door. I pull my duvet up higher and cover my face.

"No!" I exclaim, my voice slightly muffled because of the duvet. I hear her sigh before walking away.

My phone buzzes multiple times on the side table but I ignore it, knowing that it's either Cesar or Ruby trying to get me to talk to them. But a second later, the doorbell echoes through the house.

I push the duvet off my body and grab my phone off the side table, squinting at the screen to see because of how high the brightness is.

Cesar💪
iMessage
Saturday, August 27th. 6:55 pm.

I know you don't want to talk about him or to him but my brother said something about going to your house
just warning you

spooky👅
iMessage
Saturday, August 27th. 7:05 pm.

I'm outside.

little bro💩
iMessage
Saturday, August 27th. 7:06 pm.

your 'boyfriend' is here ???
wait are you guys official yet?

"No, no, no," I whisper as I sit up rapidly. My head immediately begins to spin from moving so fast, but I'm panicking too much to even notice.

"Camilla someone's here to see you." My mom says as she knocks lightly on my door. My heartbeat quickens and my palms become sweaty.

"Unless it's Sam I don't want to see this someone," I say loudly so she'll hear me through the door. "Actually I'll talk to Jamal too. He didn't do anything to me."

"I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING TO YOU EITHER!" Ruby shouts making me roll my eyes.

"Ruby," my mom scolds him and I hear a familiar laugh. At least Cesar warned me. "Just go in." My mom mumbles, pushing open the door.

I drop my phone on my lap and fold my arms across my chest. "Mom!" I whine, pouting at her. She gives me an apologetic smile and steps to the side, allowing me to see Satan himself. I dramatically roll my eyes and flop onto my back so I don't have to look at him. "I'm never going to forgive you for this mom." I sigh loudly.

"You hold grudges?" Oscar asks, taking small steps towards me.

"If you do stupid things then yeah."

"Sorry morenita." Oscar says sheepishly. I sit up and raise an eyebrow at him. "I was jealous and def overreacted."

"You were jealous of your fourteen year old brother?" I scoff, carelessly tossing my phone onto the side table. "And yeah, you did overreact."

"I said some stupid shit and it's cool if you don't wanna talk to me anymore." He shoves his hands into the pockets of his shorts, his eyes fleeting around my room.

"You're annoying as fuck." I huff, swinging my legs over the edge of the bed and standing up. "You show up at my house with your pathetic ass apology, and don't even seem the least bit interested in what you're saying."

"Camilla-"

I hold up my hand, shushing him. "I don't want to hear it. Just fucking leave."

He nods his head and leaves without saying another word. I watch him leave silently and once I'm sure that he's gone, I pick up the closest object, which happens to be a lamp, and hurl it at the wall opposite my bed.

I'm practically hyperventilating as I rush out of my room and into the bathroom down the hall. It's like my past is repeating itself. I knew it was a mistake to talk to him. Why don't I learn from my mistakes?