John Laurens was a normal orphan boy who lived a normal life.
That is, until the owner of the orphanage died because of sickness. Now the orphans is at the brink of getting kicked out until Multi-billionaire Alexander Hamilton decided to keep the or...
a/n: hey guys, please read this before you read this chapter!
so, the next chapter will be the animatic chapter- But, unfortunately I havent finished it yet, but if i tried and rush the animatic for the next chapter- it will come out sloppy and the next chapter will end up being published after a week or two, so i wont be doing the animatic yet- but i will publish the chapter without it, but i will still do it.
anyways, i hope you enjoy this chapter which is in first person! I felt so sad and figured this was the perfect opportunity to write this chapter in first person.
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this chapter is dedicated to @-johnlaurs- -
"I believe in you," Lies "The person you will grow to be and the couple we will be together." Liar.
"With my whole heart, I take you as my husband," I don't want to "Acknowledging and loving your faults and strengths, as you do mine." But I have to, don't I?
"I promise to be faithful and supportive and to make our love and happiness my priority." Knowing you, You won't be able to do that "I will be yours in plenty and in want," I don't want to be yours. "In sickness and in health, in failure and in triumph."
"I will dream with you," You will dream selfishly "Celebrate with you and walk beside you through whatever our lives may bring." Walk besides you as decoration for the rest of my life.
"You are my person." I am your slave "My love and my life," My death and demise "Today and always." I dreadedly finished.
Help me.
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It's Funny. For years of living in fame and fortune, I never really got the chance to feel at peace.
I was always obligated to do something for the company. Every single day of my life I was instructed to be perfect, to look perfect, and to feel perfect.
It's like my life was already laid out for me before I was even born.
I was built to be this puppet for the powerful to use, a decoration for the world, entertainment for the greedy. I never got the chance to be just, Me.
But sometimes, I ask myself. Is all of this really worth it?
Will these things I do be benefecial to me in the future? Or will it be beneficial to someone else's future?
Will I be just an asset to someone? Will I never become a person I yearn to be?
I want to try and live for myself, Not to live for someone else. I want to try and experience new things, not what others want for me.
Can't I be selfish for once? Why is it that everything I do, Everything I want is a disgrace to everyone else's eyes?
Why does my actions matter to so many people who don't even know who the real me is? Why are my mistakes being broadcasted for the whole world to know? Why can't I have flaws like anybody else?
