Proud

Chapter 17

I looked around the hotel room I'd found myself in. It was cozy. Small, but none the less cozy. The moment my knees find the bed, I fall back and take a deep sigh.

Today has been the most eventful day. So much has happened and I don't even know what to start thinking about. My mind is going in circles and circles. It's so overwhelming that I can't even cry. I just sit on the bed and stare at the wall above me.

A knock on my door interrupts me. I look away from the wall and at the door. I have a moment of panic. What if it's my mother? How would she know I'm here?

I immediately push away the thought and curse myself for being silly. Ofcourse it isn't my mother. It can't be. She isn't that smart.

I mean, it's probably just a worker of the hotel.

The person at the door knocks again. I get to my feet and try to peak out of the window. To my disappointment, I can see everything outside except the person at the door.

I take a deep breath. C'mon Ana, it's time to grow some balls and grow up.

I walk to the door and open it hesitantly. As I expected, it's not my mother. That being said, I'm just as shocked to see the person standing at the door.

As soon, as I see his face, I immediately slam the door back at him. How dare he even rock up here?

"Ana" He says through the closed door. I roll my eyes and lean against the closed door. Why is he here? Did he not get the message that we are over? Does he not understand English?

He repeats, "Ana, I know you're in there. I just want to talk".

"Well I don't want to talk to you" I say back to him angrily.

"How bout I just talk and you listen then?" He offers up.

I don't want to talk to him, let alone listen to another one of his excuses.

I decide to keep up my harsh act, "No. I don't want to talk, I don't want to listen. I'm not interested. So go away".

"But Ana-" He says before I interrupt him. 

I quickly open the door so I can face him as I spit out my heart breaking words.

"No! Stop! Just leave. I want nothing to do with you. You hear that? Nothing!" I shout out to him before I close the door in his face for a second time.

This doesn't put him off, "Ana, I just want to apolo-"

"Oh just fuck off Finn" I tell him through the door.

"Has something happened?" He asks me randomnly.

"Yeah, you!" I tell him rudely.

I hear a slump against the door and I assume that he is sitting down. Great, just what I needed.

"How bout other than me? You're normally not this... angry" He asks me.

I bite my lip. Even though there's so much shit happening in my life right now, I don't want to talk to him about it. I feel like I've opened up enough to him. After all, he always just chucks it back into my face.

When he notices that I won't answer his question, he decides to ask another one.

"Why did you leave today?" He asks me.

"Pfft, me leaving?" I say grudgingly.

"Yeah, I went on the phone, and when I got off, you were gone" He states matter of factly.

"Oh, you mean the three hours after you left me?" I ask him spitefully.

He takes a deep breath, "I know, I didn't realise how long I was gone for. It's just, I was talking to my cousin, and then Jack's doctors and I lost track of time... I'm sorry Ana"

"You can't keep using Jack as an excuse. It's not fair" I tell him simply.

"I know" Is all that he replies for a while. When I don't reply to him, he  continues, "You still shouldn't have just left though". 

"What did you expect me to do?" I said, throwing my hands up in the air. I realise how stupid I must look doing it seeing as he can't even see me.

"I don't know... but I am sorry. Please forgive me?" He begs.

I don't answer him simply because I don't know whether or not I should. On one hand, he seems so sincere and I want to just forgive him and cry into his welcoming arms. But on the other hand, I want to hit him and for him to treat me better.

"Can you at least open the door? The homeless guy acrross the street keeps looking me up. I feel like I'm being sexually harassed or something" He says jokingly.

This automatically lightens my mood. I get up off the floor and hold on to the door handle. I take a deep breath and think of whether I really want to let him back in. I mean, I'm not just letting him into the hotel room, but I'm letting him back into my life as well. Do I really want to go there?

"He's hand is moving towards his pants Ana, I'm a little scared of what he's doing..." Finn says through the door. I lean my head against the door and giggle a little. I make sure I'm not loud enough so that he hears me. I really don't want him thinking that what he has done is forgotten.

I gather myself and decide to just open the door.

As soon as the door opens, I feel a heavy body fall onto my legs.

A small smile comes to my face but I hide it away as soon as possible. I don't want him knowing that I'm amused.

"What are you doing?" I ask him.

He picks himself up and says, "You could've at least warned me that you were opening the door".

I smile internally at him. He's so cute when he's annoyed.

I shrug my shoulders at him and walk into my room. I hear him follow after me and shut the door.

I sit down on my bed and wait to see what he does. He comes and sits next to me. As in, right next to me. Hell, if he were any closer, he'd be on top of me.

"How did you know where I was?" I ask him.

He doesn't answer. Instead he just looks down at his hands.

"Finn..." I repeat his name.

"Fine, I hacked into your phone and found your location" He admits. I look over to where my phone is. I feel a little violated. I mean, I knew he was good with technology, but not this good.

Neither of us talk for a while, but soon enough he moves one of his hands to my face and asks, "What's wrong Ana?"

I turn my head away, knowing that it's the only thing that will keep me sane.

"No, you can't do this Finn! You can't distract me into not being angry with me" I tell him.

He nods his head at me and puts his hands up in the air innocently.

"Okay, what's wrong Ana?" He asks me again, his hands in the air.

I really want to smile at him again. He's being so cute. But I can't. I can't let him know I'm not mad at him anymore. I need to teach him a lesson and to make him sorry for how he just left me there.

"Ana..." He pushes me for answers. He moves closer to me. I don't push him away this time. Instead, I just feel my own heart beat increase.

He bites his lip and looks straight into my eyes. Seconds later, he moves closer again so that our lips are almost touching. I can feel him breathing against me and I want so badly to just kiss him and forget all my problems.

He doesn't make the next move, so  I decide to do it for him. Soon enough, all my problems have gone and I'm lost in his arms.