𝚗𝚞𝚖𝚋 ; 𝟸𝚍𝚘𝚌

chapter one

a warning: does contain mentions of self-harm, anorexia and medications

basically, 2D is a mess, as the description says

also, as damon and jamie are the reason gorillaz exist, they are included. sorry i don't make the rules i just enforce them

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2D didn't know what he was doing showing them how bad he'd gotten. He'd not eaten much in about three months, causing him to look as thin as he did, and prompting his doctor to give him medication to treat anorexia.

They were all sat in a park, silently looked around and not at each other. Murdoc kept glancing at 2D, wondering what else had happened to him during the almost two and a half years he hadn't been in contact.

"I- I guess I should explain," 2D said quietly and everyone nodded. "For starters, m'on ten medications. Four for insomnia, three antidepressants, one for anxiety, a painkiller and a pill fo' mild anorexia. The one for anorexia is recent since I've barely eaten in about three months. Other than that, I've been on the others for the time since I left. The painkillers I had before weren't really working, so I was put on better ones. Also-"

2D pulled the sleeves of his sweatshirt up, revealing both new and old self-harm marks. He pulled the sleeves back down and looked down at his lap in shame. Noodle placed her hand on his shoulder and he flinched, wanting her to stop despite the fact that she'd done nothing wrong.

"I'm sorry, I just... I don't know. Sorry."

It was odd that he was doing so much apologising, even if he hadn't done anything to apologise for. "Stop saying sorry. You've done nothing wrong," Murdoc said and 2D shook his head. "But I have! I fuck everything up and you all had to deal with it. You were better off without me," he said ad frowned, still looking down.

"Stuart Harold Pot, you haven't done anything wrong. We were not better off without you," Murdoc said, putting his hand on 2D's chin and forcing him to look up. "You should know that by now," he continued, letting 2D's head free, only for it to drop again and his short blue hair which was matted and slightly greasy to fall flat. He really had let himself go.

2D adjusted his hoodie and pulled the sleeves over his hands, then crossed his arms. He didn't know that and he still believed that they had never needed him. He said nothing, and instead stayed silent while the others talked.

2D discovered that Noodle and Russel lived in the same apartment building that he did, and he only spoke up to say that he lived there as well. "We've never seen you," Russel said and 2D shrugged. "I only leave to get the mail, get groceries or get my medicine. Tha's it," he mumbled.

"Oh," Noodle said, frowning. She didn't like seeing the bluenette like this, as it made her feel quite upset. "I feel like such an idiot an' I don't know why," 2D said, bringing his knees to his chest. He began to hum to himself, wanting to leave. He had things to do and he felt like he was being a nuisance by simply being there. Despite wanting to leave, he couldn't as he didn't have it in him to be rude enough to just say that he was leaving, so he stayed silent.

Murdoc could tell 2D was uncomfortable being there. He was fidgety and his face was pale. Murdoc said nothing, fearful that 2D would leave and he would be alone once again. All he knew was that he lived in the same apartment building as Noodle and Russel.

"I wanna put out another record," he said suddenly, and 2D's face turned almost white. "W-What?" the bluenette asked, burying his face in his knees. Another record sounded nice, but he wasn't ready for another one just yet. They'd released one in 2017 and it was simply too soon for another. He needed some well-deserved rest.

"I know it's only been a couple years since our last record, but our damn 'manager' said we had to put out another album."

Murdoc put quotation marks around manager, since he wasn't really their manager. He just organized the albums and music and was in charge of when albums would go out. Then there was the videographer, who organized their music videos and was in charge of their release. Murdoc was the only one who didn't like the two, despite them being great people.

They'd both come by the hospital 2D was held at to check if he was okay. Damon Albarn and Jamie Hewlett were the nicest people he'd ever met and had no idea why Murdoc didn't like them.

"It's too soon," 2D mumbled and everyone looked at him. "For another record. Besides, I don't wanna," he added and Murdoc was taken aback by his words. "Whadya mean you don't want to?" he questioned loudly, alerting a family who was close by. "I meant what I said: I don't wanna sing for ya stupid band anymore!" he yelled, his voice cracking.

He stood up, brushing himself off, and began to leave to go home. Nobody stopped him, but instead they watched as he walked away, noticing his hands balled into fists and that he was stomping angrily. He really did not want to do anything involving Gorillaz.

Noodle was the first to speak up. "What the hell, Murdoc? Why did you have to bring it up, and why the fuck didn't you stop him?" she asked angrily. "I want the band back together! Is that too much to ask? I've been lonely," Murdoc said, frowning, and immediately Noodle's tone softened.

She stood up and held out her hand. "Come on, we're gonna finish this at my place. Russ, ya comin'?" she asked and Russel nodded.

**

since i don't know where to stop this chapter, i'm leaving it as is and publishing early. but don't worry, i have plans for the next few chapters, even though they might end like this one did.

the story will progress no matter what, and i plan on having a minimum of 15-20 chapters.

this may not seem like it has any sort of plot right now, but i promise it does. im confident that as it goes along, it will get better.

also, ive been more active with writing in the other two books i have, so if you want, you can read them both. one is a book of 2doc oneshots & the other is a spam/rant book, so if you wanna know more about me, read that one.

thats all, and this entire thing has 1134 words in total.