𝚗𝚞𝚖𝚋 ; 𝟸𝚍𝚘𝚌

chapter fourteen

note: 2D's feelings towards murdoc are very much... i don't know. he's meant to feel this way, especially after how murdoc treated him before his attempt.

he's confused, because he thought murdoc hated him, but he also still definitely loves him, so his concern is genuine. i can't think of the word i want so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

btw, murdoc has to reconfess and it doesn't go as planned. & you're going to get annoyed with him very quickly at his stubbornness

& omg désolé is so good!! i love it!! french is one of my favorite languages so this is officially my favorite song so far.

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2D blinked, concern evident in his gaze.

"You're crying..." he mumbled, his hand shaking as he reached up to wipe Murdoc's tears away. "I am?" Murdoc questioned softly and 2D hummed in response.

"Why are you here?" the bluenette asked suddenly and Murdoc choked out a gasp. "What?" he asked and 2D narrowed his eyes. "Why are you here?" he repeated, more harshly this time. "Why aren't you out with some bird you've picked up? Why are you here with me?" he continued, louder, his voice hoarse from not using it.

"I, er..."

Murdoc was at a loss for words. But he supposed he couldn't blame 2D after what he'd done on New Year's Eve. "Damnit Murdoc, I need answers. Why am I so special? You hate me, remember?"

Ouch, that hurt. "I, er... I don't hate you," he said and 2D scoffed. "Yeah right, and I don't hate you," he said. That hurt worse.

"But I don't hate you. Damnit, why did you have to be in a stupid coma when I told you that I love you? Satan, you're so complicated," Murdoc scoffed.

"Fuck you, Murdoc. Fuck you for lying," 2D said bitterly, the words venomous as they left his throat. "So that's all this is gonna be? Us arguing? Fine, but it still doesn't change the fact that I love you, and that I have for years," Murdoc retorted and 2D's gaze softened, but Murdoc could see tears starting to form.

"Then why did you hit me for writing a song about you? You're the one who's complicated," 2D said and Murdoc sighed. He knew the bluenette was right. "I'm sorry. I feel awful about it," he said.

"That was such a shit apology, Murdoc. You did so much better when I was in a coma," 2D said and Murdoc had to do a double-take. "Yeah, I heard you. Have you ever been in a coma? I couldn't exactly say or do anything. I also heard you crying, and arguing with nurses," he continued.

Murdoc blinked. "If you couldn't do anything, why did you twitch when I talked to you?" he asked and 2D had to suppress his laughter. "Imagine yourself in a coma because you attempted suicide after you were rejected. Now, imagine the person who made you attempt suicide in the first place crying and confessing their love to you as they hold your hand. You'd do the same. If it were me crying over you, your hand would only twitch because you want to hit me for being a disgraceful human being," he explained.

Murdoc sighed. "I said I was sorry," he said and 2D shrugged.

"Yeah, I know. I just don't know if I believe you."

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Most of the hospital stay was silent. That is, after Noodle and Russel heard the good news. 2D was alive, which meant Noodle no longer had to shun Murdoc. After the chaos had died down, it was silent. Murdoc had continued to stay with 2D, despite the minimal conversation that was held. 2D would tell Murdoc to go home, Murdoc would say no. That was the end of whatever was said between them.