𝚗𝚞𝚖𝚋 ; 𝟸𝚍𝚘𝚌

apologies

unfortunately, there will no longer be an epilogue. i had tried to get the motivation to finish it, but the thoughts in my head would get jumbled up and i'd get writer's block after writing only one word.

honestly i'm pretty sure i have either adhd or autism because i don't know what the fuck is wrong with me if it's neither of those. maybe it's my lack of a proper sleeping schedule since my brain has put me on japan time (aka 13 hours ahead of my time)

i've also been attempting to write shorter fanfic but i can't even do that when it takes longer than what ao3 permits. i literally have another bandori fic draft that'll go away soon if i don't finish it.

its not as if writing isn't fun anymore, because it is - my brain is just like "nah u have to mimic someone else's style instead of finding your own" and that's impossible.

i really wish i could've done more with this book, maybe i couldve written it better. it would've been so much nicer, even if i hate every single gorillaz fanfic i ever put out.

seriously, i started writing stuff in may 2017. not even a month after becoming a fan. the worst part is that even if i still love them, it's very hard to call myself a fan because i haven't listened to any of their songs properly since may of last year. i dont consume western artists' content as much as i used to.

i dont mean to ramble but do you realise that the only time i ever hear english is when i'm talking to someone irl or watching a show or playing a game. i havent heard a song in english in a long while.

but hey, at least i'm getting better at japanese...!

wait. that's good and bad. my normal boring typical american sounding voice is starting to have an accent even when i'm speaking english.

but y'all probably don't care. you were just here for this book. you probably don't follow me, or want to follow my social medias because you're probably not interested in the things i am

BUT IF YOU ARE, i have a carrd! it has a majority of things i like!

initialbypoppinparty.carrd.co

if you have twitter & you read this, dont hesitate to follow (as long as you don't fall under one of the points in the "dni" section). it's @ maruyamapng

again, i am super super sorry that this is all you'll get from this book. might post it to ao3 when i decide i actually want to.