𝒸𝑜𝓊𝑔𝒽 𝒹𝓇𝑜𝓅𝓈

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lucas POV

"yukhei..."

jaehyun called behind me grabbing my shoulders as i stood there shocked and out of thought.

"you good buddy?"
he said patting my back.

"y-yeah im fine"
i replied .

this was it. seoul. yumi always wanted to come here with me. she always said after graduation we would go together. my heart hurt as to know that it was never gonna happen.

jaehyun and i got in a taxi and headed to his dorm. the car ride felt like it lasted forever with all the thoughts of yumi piling up in my mind. was she okay? where was she?

"we're here"
jaehyun said.

i cut off my thoughts and exited the vehicle. i was amazed at the huge building in front of us. i felt a raindrop softly land on my forehead. we went inside. i was even more amazed once i saw the inside of the building. there was a large kitchen, an endless amount of rooms and even a pool. yumi would love it here.

i was introduced to jaehyun's friends or should i say my members. yes. members. i had the opportunity to join an idol group. well more like forced. my parents, they wanted to make money off me so they forced me to take a plane to seoul and join NCT. i couldn't stop them or tell them i wasn't going. they had so much control over me, both physically and mentally. i hated the fact that i couldn't make my own life decisions.

once it got dark, me and my roommate kun went to sleep. that night was one of the worst. i quietly cried the whole night. i didn't t care that i was gonna become famous or make money. i just wanted to have yumi with me.
thankfully i fell asleep quick after all that crying.  i knew i needed lots of rest since i was gonna get ready for our debut that was in one week.

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one week later
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today was the day of our debut. once we got on stage the whole crowd screamed and cheered for us . throughout the whole performing I would imagine that yumi would also be in the crowd. cheering me on and supporting me like she always did.

i panted hard when we were done. i had never danced so hard in my life. yumi would be so proud. i frowned at the thought that she wasn't here.

"lucas cmon don't be sad it's time to celebrate!"
mark, one of my fellow members said patting my back.

i falsely smiled to reassure him that i was fine.
all of them started to cheer. i was very confused. suddenly the van came to a stop and mark started opening the door. each member started getting out one by one. i grew more confused as we weren't at our dorm. we were at a club.

i  hesitated as i heard the loud music and people in the club. but i got pulled into the building anyways. i ended up at the bar.

jaehyun held out a shot of alcohol to me.

"oh i don't really drink it's oka-"
i got cut off at the feeling of burning liquid running down my throat. he had poured the drink in my mouth while i was talking. my face scrunched up at the strong taste. i already felt quite light headed at first and it gradually grew.
everything became a blur.I was now heavily drunk after too many shots to count.

a grand blur of loud music, people's voices, screaming, alcohol and even girls all over me. all my friends were no where to be seen. i felt lips on mine and saw an unfamiliar girl kissing me. .in the back of my mind was the great guilt of kissing someone that wasn't yumi. but the alcohol had taken over all my senses and blocked out that feeling. the kiss ended up with me and her sleeping together in the back room. she had fallen asleep on my chest. the whole room reeked with the smell of alcohol. my eyes shut together again. i had fallen asleep for a while.

now she was no where to be seen.
only a sticky note with

"call me
(***)***-****"
i threw away the note. i was still not sober and ended up outside. it was heavily raining. i didn't have a coat on and it was freezing cold. i was determined to walk back to the dorm. i had walked about a mile from the club and the sound of music was completely gone.

my vision got blurry as i bumped into someone. i apologized without seeing who it was. i felt a punch at my face. i couldn't fight back. i was as weak as ever. i let it happen. there in the alley way. as they beat me and beat me. kicking my stomach until ifelt them reach into my pocket for what i guess was my wallet. i blacked out and the last thing i envisioned before i was finally out was the smiling face of yumi.

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HII
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