Broken (Jeff Hardy x reader)

Chapter 47

Athena's POV

Tomorrow is my birthday. I am gonna commit suicide when Jeff leaves the house for the gym tomorrow. So I'm scared to be honest. I am gonna have to do this though. I cut myself when Jeff was getting changed. I used a knife. I was wearing a long sleeve so they are covered. 

 "What's wrong?" He asked.

 "What? Nothing!" I answered in panic.

 "Ok.....?" He chuckled. He hugged me tight.

 *The Next day*

 "Happy birthday." Jeff whispered as I woke up.

 "Thank you. I love you. You have to get to the gym though." I reminded him. He nodded and got ready. I walked downstairs and cut myself more before he left. When he left I ran upstairs and got a note I wrote yesterday. I ran downstairs and put it in front of the door. I cried when I put it down. I got a chair and a rope. I stood on the chair.

 "Just don't think, it'll all be over soon." I whispered to myself. I thought I heard a footsteps but Jeff is gone so it wasn't him. I took a second as the chair fell from my feet.

 Jeff's POV

 I almost forgot my gym bag so I ran in. I saw a note and opened it.

Dear reader, please read.

Saraya: I love you so much. You are the best sister ever. I know it might be hard for you without me and mom and dad but I don't deserve to be here. I was misplaced. It ok through, you'll see me soon. Just wait. I'm watching over you and Jeff up here. I love you.

Jeff: Hey Jeff. You are the best boyfriend I ever had. You can be strong without me. I can't handle this. I love you and Saraya but my parents are dead, Lauren's dead. I can't handle it. I cry every night almost. I am just living life with cutting myself and being depressed. I'm a waste of space. I love you. I'm running out of space to write. Bye. I love you.

I skimmed through it all and ran upstairs. I caught her when the chair was falling. At that moment I ran faster then over and got her. I carried her. I heard her scream and sob. I carefully grabbed the chair and put it under her feet with my free hand. I stood her up. I took the rope off her neck as she cried slowly. I hugged her tight. 

"I can't lose you. I love you." I whispered getting her off the chair.

"I love you too." She whispered back. She was just crying. She was only wearing a bra and panties. I got her clothes and first grabbed her arms.

"I'm here for you and I don't want anymore of that. Please." I looked at her with my sad eyes. I took out my phone since tonight was RAW. It's in our hometown. 

"Hey Stephanie." I started off. Instantly being greeted with yells. 

Athena's POV

I watched as Jeff made a phone call. 

"Hey Stephanie." He's started off. I heard yelling from the phone. "I know! I know! Something actually came up. I don't know if Athena is comfortable with me telling." He looked at me. I nodded. "Uh let's just say it was bad enough to miss RAW. I will tell you about it at RAW. But we can't make it tonight." 

"Baby, we have to go. " I whispered as he hung up.

"No. You are not important than my job." He kissed my cheek. He called Saraya next. "Saraya, get over here now. I don't care if you're at RAW!! It's about your sister and suicide." He whispered and hung up.

"Why did you try and do it?"  He asked .

"One, my parents. Two, Lauren. Three, everyone hates me. Four, anxiety. Five, the image I saw from when Lauren died. Six, Baron. Seven, Beth. Eight, Bayley. Nine, I miss Ruby. Ten, my parents died on my birthday. Eleven, I-I" I busted into tears. Jeff comforted me until there was a knock. I grabbed a pillow and hugged it. I heard whispered as Saraya came in.

 "Oh sis. Why?" Saraya ran over and hugged me. She kissed my cheek.

 "Because my life sucks! You and Jeff are the only good things about it. Life is so stressful and-"

"But we don't give up. If everyone gave up when they were going through a hard time then I would be dead. Jeff would be dead. Everyone would dead. But we get through it and you're not alone. I'm here. I won't leave. And Lauren, Mom, and Dad are watching over us. In heaven. They love us and miss us but it's fine. We will see them one day. It wasn't the last time we saw them." Saraya comforted. "I mean I can see them tomorrow for all we know." When she said that it made me cry more. 

"Oh no, Athena not like that I-" Jeff placed a hand on her shoulder. He signalled for her to move.

"Athena, just know, we are always here for you." Jeff smiled and rubbed my back.

"Please don't send me to therapy. Not again." I begged.

 "Again?" He asked.

 "Yea. When she was young, before our parents died, they made her go to therapy. She didn't want too. Then I was the one who would have to take her out because my parents swore it was working but I know my sister and it wasn't helping. It made things worse." Saraya explained. He nodded.

 "I won't. I promise." He hugged me tightly. I felt so safe. It eventually go so late and Saraya had to leave. I hugged her tight. After that I swore I wouldn't try and commit suicide ever again.