Room #12 [hiatus]

CHAPTER 17: Dark Nights

Elle

" You didn't tell me that Jace and Dylan was here." I said following behind Emily.

" To be fair you didn't exactly ask"

Em had brought me upstairs to the guest room. Emily's house was huge. I looked around taking in the simplicity and beauty of her house until we were at what seems to be my room.

" So my parents said you can stay as long as you need."

" Really ? Thanks Em" I said resting my things on the bed.

" yea no problem. So, the bathroom is right over there , um ..the closet is empty ;So you can use it  and if you want fresh air the balcony is through the glass doors. If you need anything my room is right down the hall"

Emily gave me one last hug and left the room. For a guest room, it was rather large. The walls were a dark blue-ish grey color and the white furniture made the environment seem so calming.
  I took all the things I needed and went to take a shower. After all the events of today , I was left feeling both mentally and physically drained.

Why is this all happening... why now

After coming out the shower , I put on a large oversized t-shirt and a black shorts and I tied my hair into a messy bun. I tried falling asleep but I couldn't. My mind kept racing and I felt as if I couldn't breathe. My phone have been ringing nonstop since I left the house but I didn't really want to talk to anyone. I put my phone on silent and I moved to the edge of the bed.  I slowly got up and walked over to the two glass doors.
I stepped on to the balcony feeling the cold wood under my feet. I walked to the railing and just looked at the horizon. It was dark but it wasn't pitch black. The atmosphere was still as if the whole world stopped for a moment and all you were left to do was think.

" It's soothing isn't it," Jace said

I turned around to see that he was walking towards me on the balcony.

" I swore I locked the door." I said rolling my eyes.

" Well to my luck you didn't..... you wanna talk about it ? You know ... your dad coming back..."

I looked over at Jace who was now beside with wide eyes.

" Shawn didn't tell me everything if that makes you feel better. He just told me that your dad came back and it upset you and you ran away. He texted me asking if I knew where you were." He said nervously scratching the back of his neck.

" Step dad." I said dryly

" huh?"

" My dad's dead. The one that came back is my step dad... he cheated on my mom a lot and hurt her. Now he's back as if nothing happened. I use to think I could trust him. That he was the father I didn't get to have but it's just lies ..."

Jace looked down at his tattoo on his wrist and started to trace has hands over the words.

" Yeah I know the feeling..."

I reached out and held on to his wrist.

" why do you have a tattoo of your own name?" I said fully observing his arm.

" You know how ... your dad is dead?"

"Yeah"

"Mine might as well be."

" What do you mean?"

"I'm named after my dad. He always said it was some type of way we have a piece of each other. You know I have his name and he has mine. I thought that shit was cheesy until the summer before coming to school my dad tried to kill himself. He shot himself in the head and now he's in a coma."

" Oh my gosh Jace I'm so sor-"

" Don't. Don't apologize. My mom didn't take it so well and took up drinking which explains why I don't drink. The house gets lonely sometimes so I'm either here at Emily's since Dylan is always here or Shawn comes over sometimes if his mom is at home to take of his sisters."

" So on days where you skip school... are you visiting your dad?"

" yeah .... sometimes I read to him. My dad was a big nerd," he said with a bitter laugh. " So I would read him some literature books since that was his favorite"

" Wow .... I'm sorry I ever misunderstood you"

" To avoid getting hurt I just put up walls I guess... normally it's hard to break them down ...but not for you bumblebee. I just wanted you to know that I understand the hurt your feeling right now. This is going to kind cliché as fuck but , When I was going through my bullshit Shawn's mom told that the darkest nights produce the brightest stars"Jace said now looking at me.

I turned my head and to meet his eyes. There's something different in the way he looks at me but I can't seem to point it out.

Boom

Our heads then turn to my room door busting open and Shawn , Mariana, Dylan and Emily standing in the door way.

" Shawn wtf what are-"

I didn't get to finish my sentence because Shawn's lips were now on mine. The kiss was slow but it was short.

" What was that about?"

" Nothing... absolutely nothing," he said looking kind of sad? " I'm just glad your okay"

I turned my head to find Mariana now in the spot where Jace use to be.

" Where did Jace go ?" I asked Mariana

" I don't know he stormed out but Elle I'm so sorry Jacob and I didn't tell you the whole truth. We just wanted the first week for you to be great and sigh we were selfish and stupid"

I walked to Mariana and have her a hug. I can't stay mad  at Mar and Jacob for too long. They were the only people who had known everything about me. I can't just let them go. Plus , James is their actual dad. They must be unhappy with what's happening too.

" I'm sorry I go so mad."

" are you going to come home?"

" not just yet ," I said letting her go. " I just need time to breathe and think for a while."

Shawn and Mariana shook their heads with understanding and Emily walked them to the front door. I turned around and looked up at the nights Sky.

The darkest nights produce the brightest stars

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Long chapter to make up for not updating in 3 days🙃