Your POV
i have always considered myself to have a good way of speaking. Not in the smooth talking everyone loves when i talk way and not the way that everything i say is brilliant and intelligent, but more of the sense that i know words of the heart and what should be said. I am poetic most of the time, and i like philosophy. And even though i thought i was so amazing at speaking, i find myself unable to express what i feel about what happened between me and Loki. So much so i find that i have canceled all of my meetings with him for the past week, but through Bucky. Thor had spoken to me about how he wasn't sure his brother was okay, yet i lied and said he was fine. I spent most of my days either with Steve or Tony acting like a young child in need of an adult. The few times i had passed Loki in the large tower, he brisked past me as if i did not exist. I have always thought myself good at speaking but i know Loki is better.
" y/n, you good kid? I love having you helping around the Lab but you never spend this much time down here..." Uncle T asked while holding my hand. Bruce glanced up with his kind smile and i sighed. If i had more female friends besides Natasha i wouldn't be in this problem. If only b/f/n didn't live in Paris and that young scientist i visited named Shuri didn't live in Africa. If only i was as good with my feelings as i am with others.
" Uncle T, i'm just tired, " I lied not wanting him to know about Loki, for he would surely murder the poor boy. Tony nodded and called for Clint, who walked with me to my bedroom but he didn't leave.
" Alright y/n what's up this time!" Clint asked with a slight laugh. I looked up at him and then i threw myself onto my bed.
" Clint i think we might have a problem... i think the tomcat has earned some of my affections. " I said. I watched the light-bulb light above his head, then the fire in his eyes, and then finally he settled. He look his face in his hands and rubbed his eyes.
" you have feelings for a psychopath? I knew you were crazy but not this crazy!" Clint yelled at me and he fell down next to me.
" you think it's only that? No, i watch an army he commanded do something evil and he is a TOTAL fuckboy! i am screwed! Clint i am Jane Eyre but he just simply can't be my Rochester. I simply can not let him in, right?" i questioned myself in every statement. Loki was odd for me because i knew about him and i knew one half of him, but there was another half. with me when we spoke he was almost always a brave young soul, like a ready to fight soldier and an equally ready author, and then with others he was a cold-hearted fool.
" y/n are you seriously saying right now that you think he could ever treat you well?" Clint questioned me only adding to my doubt. But i had always trusted my heart, it was the one thing that had sent me in the right direction. i mean it introduced me to these people who were practically me family, so how could i doubt it now? ugh but at the same time i know what he is... he isn't the type of guy to like girls like me. Girls that are sweet but witty, ones that are independent yet full of love, no he likes the ones that want him -- they are easier to leave. "y/n? oh god, you are in deep!"
" I KNOW CLINT! but he is different around me!"
" THAT'S HOW HE IS PLAYING YOU!" He spit in my face and i rolled over with a groan and stared at my star covered ceiling. If Clint knew Loki had -- my thoughts were interrupted by my phone buzzing. Clint picked it up and handed it to me. On the screen was a picture of a frowning Fury with the words S.H.E.I.L.D calling displayed on the screen. I carefully answered.
" Hello, director Fury?" i asked, not sure why i was getting a call after i just got back from a shield trip two months ago and i wasn't an official agent.
"Ah yes hello, Agent l/n. I am calling to inform you of a mission you need to take you and test subject 6 on. " I jumped up when he said test subject 6. That wasn't just any person, that was Loki. I was choking on nothing and Clint patted my back.
" director Fury sir, i am not sure he is ready for-" I went to say he wasn't ready for a mission but Fury answered me by hanging up. I should have been used to that by now. I looked at Clint and sighed.
~ a time skip because we are lazy!~
Loki's Pov
i waited a long time for her to come up to the helicopter. When Thor said i would be going on an official mission i was happy to get a distraction from y/n and her cruel ways of creeping into my mind but NO i had to go on a mission with HER! Thor stood looking at his watch. Finally she came out of the doors. She wore a a long blue and white jacket that had a hood that she was already wearing. Then she had a gold turtle neck crop top with a pair of very tight blue jeans and gold combat boots. On her hands were blue gloves that came up to her elbow with gold linings and around her neck was a necklace that had a sparkling set of emeralds, diamonds, and gold. On her head she wore a head-necklace that was the same as the one around her neck and in her ears she wore blue sapphire earrings and her nose piercing that was the same emerald as her necklace and headpiece thing.
" Ah, yes brother look at her! young y/n is so very powerful! they call her the Siren with her amazing charm and talents!" Thor boomed in my ear. Y/n blushed at his compliment and hugged him. Then she just nodded at me. we climbed into the helicopter. She was stiff for the entire trip. When we finally arrived in the place called Israel, i watched Aubrey walk out and then Thor. I was the last one out because Antony insisted i still wear handcuffs.
" Alright, Thor, I think you can unchain your brother now..." She said while Thor turned and began undoing the chains. I stretched my wrists and smiled but Thor set down Mjolnir and smacked my head. Y/n looked intrigued by the hammer and without any hesitation she bent down and picked up the hammer. My brother was absolutely shell shocked and i can't lie i was impressed.
"LADY Y/N HOW ARE YOU HOLDING MJOLNIR RIGHT NOW?" Thor yelled, i'm not sure if he was excited or terrified but it was funny! Y/n looked up and rolled her eyes.
" Yeah right this isn't the real thing! if Steve can't pick up Mjolnir then i shouldn't be able to!" she said while throwing it up in the air. Thor reached up and took it from her grasp and then he placed it on my shoulder which made me topple to the ground. Y/n eyes widened and Thor nodded his head.
" Well now that you know how worthy you are, Lady y/n, i say you take my brother with you to the healing camp while i search for Agent Ross and King T'challa," Before the poor girl could protest, Thor flew away to find the two men. She looked at me with nervous eyes, to which i replied with rolled eyes.
" Don't think i want to be stuck with you either, mortal," I growled. She looked hurt but then she just nodded and began walking away. I didn't move to catch up so she turned around.
" Don't make me drag your sorry ass to this camp, the soldiers will eat you alive," She said and went back to walking. The only reason i followed her was to protect my pride nothing else. When we arrived at the camp a long line of men waited for us, but in beds. i watched as many soldiers perked up at y/n's presence. So much so that one soldier, with short, red hair walked over and hugged her.
" It's good to see that our favorite nurse hasn't totally abandoned us! and you are just in time for the dance!" He said it and she smiled softly. She grabbed my arm and made me shake hands with the man.
" Tom this is Loki, Loki this is Tom. Now Tom i have to get him ready to help out all your men so if you would excuse us," she said it but we were already walking away. we walked into a small room with plenty of medical supplies and uniforms. " You have to be nice to everyone here Loki. They don't live good most days and today is a dance they have every year, that's why T'challa is here... anyways --" she went to continue talking but we heard a huge crash outside the tent.
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The Healer (LokiXReader)
FanfictionY/N has lived her entire life not knowing what she really is, but knowing she was special. she could bend water with her brain, place silly spells on most people, but most importantly she could heal others and herself. Her parents died when she was...
