I'll be with you here until the end. ~completed~

After Brian

December 2009

"I can't wait to go home and see my babies!!" I squeal on the bus.

"Gosh Marl, that's the five hundreth time I've heard you say that today." Matt says.

"You know how I feel. You're not ready to see River and Val?"

"Okay, okay. You're both equally excited. I bet your excited to see your fiance Ch...." Zacky gets cut off by Jimmy.

"Wait guys!!! Guess what? Marl is the only one who hasn't gotten laid all tour!!!!"

"Ooooooh. Hahaha." They all laugh.

"Fuck off. He's touring so fuck offff." I grab a beer and sit on the couch.

"Fine. Okay. You're right." Jimmy says.

"What I thought."

"Soo..what was your guys' favorite thing about the tour?" Johnny asks.

"Probably when Papa Gates brought Ellie to surprise me. She fucking shredded that guitar!!" I yell.

"Fuck yea she did! My favorite part was when Val met us at the hotel and...." I cut Matt off.

"Nobody wants a recap. We all heard."

"My favorite part was hanging with Sin." Jimmy puts an arm around me. "Doing some dumb shit we used to do with other Syn. Writing songs about death with you. I don't know. This was probably the best tour since Brian left. Just hanging out with the best buds I know. Wait, Marl are you crying?" Jimmy laughs.

"No. Fucking allergies. Continue."

Jimmy hugs me tighter and Johnny comes over and joins in.

"If someday I'm not here, I just want you to know, you're my best buddy, more than everything. You guys are my best friends and I'm having the best time in the fucking world. I'm a little too close to Johnny right now but that's okay."

Everyone was tearing up while I was fucking sobbing.

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"Ellie!!" I yell walking into Papa Gates' house.

"Momma!!" She yells running with Synyster's guitar.

"You were good for Papa right?"

"She was fine. I swear this kid is just like Boro."

"Oh gosh. The trouble I'm going to have with you." I ruffle her hair.

You see.

That's Brian's daughter.

How the hell did I not know I was pregnant?

I don't know.

But Ellie looks just like her Dad.

She has that fire like him.

"Earth to Mom?"

"Oh, sorry go get your stuff. Chris should be home soon."

Ellie runs upstairs.

"You know. Ellie really likes Chris." Papa Gates says.

"Really?" I ask.

"Yea. Chris has... I'm not gonna say fill Brian's role but, he's exactly what she needs in her life."

"Thanks Papa Gates." Chris says from behind me.

"Holy shit. You fucker." I go and hug him.

"I missed you too." He laughs.

"Is that Chris?" Ellie yells.

"Yes. It's me." He yells back.

"Chrisssss!!!!!" She runs downstairs.

"I missed you also." He laughs hugging her.

"I missed you. It was weird not having you and Mom around."

"I agree." Papa Gates chimes in.

"You know who else misses you?" I ask Ellie.

"Who?"

"Go outside."

She runs outside and sees her Uncles.

"Little Haner!!" Jimmy yells.

Withouts Brian it's been okay. Chris isn't Brian but he is an amazing person.

I met Chris at a band thing.

He's adorable. He's in the band Motionless in white

Apparently I have a thing for band guys?

I don't know.

The guys all love him.

They all go out and drink and shit.

The way he treats Ellie is great.

But what if Brian was here.

Well he is kinda.

I named my daughter Ellie because of Brian.

I thought Ellie kind of went with Elwin.

"Come on mom and Chris!!" She grabs us and yanks us outside.

"Come on Papa. Get your ass out here." She yells.

"You said what?" I ask.

"I said butt." She laughs

"Oh God." I lean my head on Chris as Jimmy and Ellie go running. "We're going to have our hands full with that one."

"I know what I'm getting myself into." He kisses me.

My life is going pretty well.

Nothing could destroy the happiness I have now.

Little did I know, later that month would change everyone's lives foREVer.

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Idk man. I just wanted a little more for this. A little more after Brian stuff.

Peace and pancakes bitches.