I actually liked to clean even though sometimes I acted like I didn't. My Mom's official cleaning day was Saturday. I had to dust whatever was within my reach. Then my mom would put two pots on the table. One with soapy water and the other plain. Shannon and I would wash the breakfast dishes. I actually enjoyed it. I guess I was a typical kid that liked to play in the water. I made sure everything was spotless. It made me feel good to do something I normally couldn't do. It was a treat. Then, I would settle in front of the TV for the afternoon to watch the "Creature Double Feature" on channel 48. They would show either the Japanese giant monster movies where the movement of the lips didn't match the dialogue or the supernatural. You know witches, demons, vampires and such. They terrified me, but fascinated me at the same time. Sometimes at night I swear I would hear things or see things. I never said a word. I was afraid. Of what I don't know. Maybe that's why I accepted Christ at such a young age. Maybe I was afraid of going to Hell. I remember being at my neighbor's summer Bible club. I raised my hand and I asked Jesus to come into my heart. I know I didn't fully understand everything then, but the Lord would certainly reveal himself to me in a mighty way. I wanted to be perfect. I knew God loved me even when no one else did. I was always trying to prove myself to others. Proving that I was good enough. Proving that I was just like them. Sometimes I still struggle but I know that I will be judged by God's standards and not the world's. Thank God for that cause I would never pass. I know He made me for a purpose. Even now I'm not sure exactly what it is......every time I think I have it all figured out, things change. So, I just keep on going. God is bigger than everything...........I've learned that quite clearly.
