It's so hard to be me. Maybe that sounds silly, but people put so many expectations on you it can be completely overwhelming. Greater still are my own expectations that I can never seem to meet. Stereotypes are aweful! They are even crippling. They come with their own rules and expectations. I have never fit in anywhere. I've always felt like I was on the edge. Accepted, but not missed. If I disappeared, things wouldn't be much different. Almost invisible. And so I retreat to myself. There is something greater. I know my design is not for the masses. God designed me for those that feel the same. They don't fit in either. I feel like I am being pulled away from everything I have known. To where is uncertain. It doesn't matter because Jesus is with me. That's what I always remember.
