Feeling This (Ashton Irwin)

twenty two - futures

BECAUSE IT'S ASHTONS BIRTHDAY HERES A QUICK UPDATE (with some smut sorta not really) ILY ALL THANKS FOR READING X

alSO head over to mashtonteller to read a 5sos fic by ewashton and i it's gonna be great trust

It was very convenient having a super cute boyfriend to spend all your summertime with. Even though he started to get super busy about a month or so into the summer because the tour was going to be starting soon, he was still around as much as he could be. I chose to hangout with Catty sometimes, but other than her I really didn't have many girl friends. The ones I met at school didn't seem to show much interest in me unless I was with the guys.

A month into summer and I had basically spent every second of my time with Ashton or Michael. I tried to keep up with Michael as best as possible since I didn't want him to think that I had forgotten about him.

I hadn't seen Ashton in a few days so I planned on sneaking through his window and surprising him. It definitely wasn't the first time I had done that, and he did it all the time to me. Majority of the time it was spent fucking the moment he got through the window, us both desperate for something at that late time in the night, but tonight I just wanted to be with.

I climbed through his window -delicately- I had managed to perfect it so that no one would be able to hear me, and I land softly on the ground. Ashton facing away from me, pacing around the room, shirtless, talking on the phone to someone. He hadn't notice that I'd snuck in, and it was pretty late in the night. He kept talking on the phone, raising his voice a little each time he spoke.

"I want to see them." I heard him say. His voice was shaky and it was obvious he was about to cry.

"No- but- listen to me! Their my only family, please." He runs his fingers through his hair, his bandana coming off in the process. He throws it behind him at me and it lands on my head. I try not to laugh because he still doesn't know I'm here and I don't want to startle him.

"Yes, I know I made a mistake, but I want to fix it." He continues. I piece together what he was saying and realize he's talking to his aunt who currently has custody of his brother and sister. He must've finally figured out that all of this was fixable and that he did want to see them. It would be hard on him, but I know he could do it.

"You have absolutely no idea what it was like for me after they died! I was still so young and everyone expected me to look after them and I tried my hardest and I failed, and that memory haunts me every single fucking day. I will do anything to fix it, just let me see them." I couldn't take watching him be so vulnerable. He was pounding his fist against the wall, tears probably streaming down his face, and it hurt me so much to see him like this. I quickly run up behind him, throwing my arms around his torso and nuzzling my face against his back. He tensed for a minute, but when he looked down to my tattooed arms, he relaxed back into me and seemed to calm down a bit.

"Alright, whatever, I'm going to see them, I swear I will. Goodbye." He hung up the phone harshly and dropped in through his fingers to the ground. His hands fly to his face, trying to wipe away any tears that have escaped, but it just ends up causing him to cry more. I place quiet kisses on his back, trying to calm him.

He turns around so he's facing me, but I never get a chance to see his face because he just buries it into my neck. "It's okay, Ash... Was that your aunt?" I cooed.

He sniffles, "Yeah, we have a show near where they live... and I just wanna see them y'know? Why is this so hard, I miss them so damn much, Zoe Lee."

"It'll work out, it always does." I push away the hair that hung low on his face and he gives me a look.

"What?" I ask, a smile forming across my face.