Alpas (A Demi Lovato Fan fiction)

Chapter 52-Guilt

Demi's POV

"Demi" he said.

I jerked my head up at the familiar voice, getting up simultaneously.

My eyes widened and I froze.

"Wilmer" I uttered.

"Oh my God, Demi" he cried out as he grabbed me in for a hug.

I wrapped my hand tightly around his waist as he held me close. His familiar scent bought back so many memories, both good and bad and in that moment I realized just how much I had missed him and how much I needed him, and not just as a friend.

"Is Aurie okay?" he asked, worriedly as he pulled away.

"We-we don't know yet" I answered, letting out a frustrated sigh.

"When did you get here?" I asked.

"I flew in as soon as I heard Dems" he said, worry and concern etched onto his face.

"Wait...but how did you know?" I asked, confused.

I hadn't told him and neither had my family. It had nothing to do with Wilmer and I not dating, we just hadn't had the time too nor were any of us in the state of mind to tell people what had happened. Wilmer still is close to my family, and was and always would remain my closest friend, no matter our history.

"Demi...have you checked your phone recently?" he asked cautiously.

I shook my head, sort of scared and worried at the same time.

"It's all over the internet...everyone knows" he explained.

"WHAT?!" I roared, shocked and angry at the media for using my 15 year old sister's pain as a way to gain money.

Quickly, I removed my phone and there it was-

"World Superstar Demi Lovato's younger sister, Aurelia Lovato hospitalized for serious self-infliction wounds"

And another-

"The 'Confident' singer's little sister follows in her older sister's dark footsteps. Will this mean that Aurelia too will be sent to Rehab? How much truth is the Lovato family truly hiding from their fans?"

"Aurelia Lovato hospitalized for trying to commit suicide! What dark truth are the Lovatos hiding from the world?"

My anger increased as I read each headline. There were some blurry and dark photos of Aurie on the stretcher outside my house and some outside the hospital to provide 'proof' to the viewers that the media wasn't lying.

How could they?!

It was Aurelia's choice if she wanted the world to no or not, but that choice was already snatched away from her by some meddlesome paparazzi and reporters.

"THEY CAN'T DO THIS!" I shouted, tears of frustration falling down my eyes.

"Demi...calm down baby, please calm down" my dad said, sitting me down on the chairs once again and stroking my back.

"They-they can't do this dad. It's Aurie's choice if-if she wants the world to know, not the media's. She's going to be devastated if and when she wakes up" I said, stressed and angry.

"Demi...everything is going to be just fine. Just breath baby, we'll figure it out later" my dad said, comforting me.

I did as he said and took long deep breaths, exhaling just two seconds later and continuing the process.

Wilmer sat down next to me, and even though we weren't dating, I wanted him to hold my hand they way he used to and comfort me just like the old days.

As if he had read my mind, he pulled me in to his side, rubbing my arm as a way to comfort me.

"She's going to be okay Demi...she's going to be just fine" he whispered in my ear, placing a soft kiss on the side of my forehead.

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It was 11 in the night.

Noah had come a few hours back and though we had urged him to go back home and get some rest, he was adamant on staying until we were provided with some news from the doctors.

Wilmer too had stayed back and now he and Maddie had gone down to the cafeteria to buy us all something to eat.

My mum had fallen asleep on my dad's shoulder while my dad was quiet, lost in his world of thoughts.

"Dems...I'm going down for some air. Wanna join?" Dallas asked.

I nodded in response and the two of us walked out the hospital and towards the garden sort of area in the back, where benches were placed.

We sat on one of the benches, an old couple sitting on the bench opposite ours.

It was quiet, except for the faint murmurs of passerby's and distant honks of cars stuck in traffic.

"Demi, did-did you know ab-about Aurie?" Dallas asked, breaking the silence.

My stomach turned into knots at that question and I stared at the grass below.

"Yeah" I muttered incoherently, hoping that she hadn't heard.

She let out a tired sigh, and from my periphery I saw her look up at the night sky.

"Why didn't you tell me Dems?" she asked, sadly.

"I-I wanted to but...I couldn't break Aurie's trust. I thought she was getting better, I really did but-but I guess I was wrong about it all" I said truthfully.

She didn't say anything.

"It's my fault Dallas..I know it. I should've told you...or mom...just someone, who would've paid more attention to her than me." I said, on the verge of tears.

"I'm sorry Dallas" I said and broke down into tears as the guilt finally consumed me entirely.

"Oh Dems" she cried out and grabbed me in for a hug.

I let her hold me, let myself be vulnerable and cried for a good 15 minutes until I had no tears left to cry.

"It's not your fault Demi...believe me it isn't. I-I just wish I could've helped my little sister from going down the wrong path but I couldn't...neither did I help her nor you when you were going through this" she quivered.

"Dallas...I'm sorry for putting you through all my shit...mum, dad, Maddie, Aurie and Wilmer too. I don't think Aurie would've gone down that path if I wouldn't have used the techniques I did to numb my pain and blame myself. She learnt it from me...and that guilt and pain is not something that's going to be washed away." I said, my head hanging low.

Dallas lifted up my chin and looked at me.

"It isn't your fault" she urged, looking deep into my eyes as a way to tell me that she wasn't lying.

I knew that many people would tell me that it wasn't my fault...maybe a part of me would believe them but a huge part of myself would always feel that guilt of not being able to protect my sister from doing something so dark and dangerous.

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