Alpas (A Demi Lovato Fan fiction)

Chapter 58-Xanax

Aurie's POV

I sat up, afraid about where this was heading. I gulped nervously as she sighed and eventually held up a small packet in front of my eyes.

My xanax.

I froze. My heart was pounding and my palms were getting extremely sweaty.

"I found this in your room when I was cleaning it up. Care to explain why you have a packet of Xanax hidden away?" she asked.

I was terrified and intimidated by her. Not once had she spoken to me this way, and I knew she was pissed.

I couldn't talk. I was completely shocked; my brain was still trying to make sense of what was happening. I had never imagined that anyone would find out about this.

"Aurie, I want you to tell me the truth baby. Why this was in your room?" Dallas urged, her voice stern but caring at the same time.

"I-I-I...." I stuttered.

The knots in my stomach only tightened, and suddenly my breathing became uneven, my hands shook and I gasped for air.

"Aurie? Baby girl? What's happening?" Dallas asked, immediately rushing to me.

"I-I can't b-b-breathe" I let out as best as I could.

Dallas held me close trying to calm me down but Demi was always the one who helped me best when something like this happened. Maddie too had dealt with this with one of her friends before and so she knew what to do the last time this had happened to me, but Dallas didn't.

"DEMI!" Dallas yelled out, her voice frantic and fearful.

In about seconds, I saw Demi rush into the room. Her eyes went wide when she noticed me and she darted towards me.

"Sit down baby girl." she instructed as she rubbed her hand up and down my back.

"Match my breathing Ree...in and out...in and out." she instructed.

I inhaled and exhaled trying to match my breathing with Demi's and slowly, I could feel my breathing coming back to its normal pace.

My forhead was filled with my sweat, my hands clammy and my heart still pounding.

"Are you okay?" she asked.

I nodded my head in response, not having the strength to talk. She handed me the bottle of water from the bedside table and I immediately gulped half of it down.

"What happened Dallas?" Demi asked worriedly.

My eyes shot towards Dallas and I shook my head vigorously, pleading with my eyes to keep the xanax a secret.

Dallas noticed my pleads. Her eyes were sad but she shook her head at me in response, mouthing a 'sorry'.

"Dems...I have to tell you something" Dallas said.

I could feel my eyes watering and as I watched them leave the room, I burst into tears.

I lay on my bed, grabbing the blanket around me and screaming into the pillow as the pillow covers got damp with my salty tears.

My arms stung, itching me to cut again but I had no blades with me. So I lay there for what felt like hours, sobbing, screaming and making a mess of tears on the bed.

I saw my room door open slightly and Wilmer walked in.

"Aurie...I'm leavin-" he started to say. 

Once he saw what state I was in, he dashed to my side and I let him console him.

"Oh my God Aurie..." he cried out, his voice hinting sadness.