Bullied- a Jenzie story

Sometimes sorry isn't enough -19

"Hey... we need to talk. It's important"

My mouth drops to see who was on the other side of that door

Lauren Orlando. 

Her eyes seem puffy, her hair seems messy, she just looks like a mess. I probably shouldn't talk though. I obviously have some sort of problem. I'm starting to purge, I cut, I'm just overall broken into pieces. You know that saying 'Follow you heart' I'm sure you've heard it. But what part should I follow? My heart is in a million different pieces, broken by everyone who has come into my life.

"oh sure" I'm still in disbelief. Why would Lauren want to talk to me, after what I did? I move out of the doorway to let her inside. She walks in, a bit hesitant though. 

"Can we sit on the couch? This might take awhile."

"Yeah" I reply back, trying to sound sweet but sounding more confused because I really am. She hasn't talked to me in about a month. Why now? I thought she was over our friendship.

We walk over to the couch. We both sit down. I cover my stomach with my hands, feeling insecure about my body. I mean who wouldn't? Lauren is so petite and fragile looking. She has gorgeous hair and a gorgeous smile. Her eyes are almost the prettiest eyes I've ever seen. Her body is so slim, looking like a barbie doll. But she's healthy looking. She has fair skin, very pale. Her eyebrows are almost perfect. 

She's perfect.

"So what's it about?" I ask, breaking the silence.

"Oh, right. So something happened" Her voice became thick, sounding like she was about to cry. She finally lost it and just started sobbing. 

"Lauren, just tell me. You can tell me what happened"

"Oh god, Kenz. I'm such an awful person" she said between sobs

I'm starting to get worried. What did she do?

"Just spill Laur"

"I- we, Hayden and I had sex. When you were dating."

There it goes. She did what I asked her to, she told me. I regretted telling her to say it. My heart shattered into more and more pieces. All those stares they were giving each other were because of this. All those times I trusted Hayden, he was sleeping with a girl. The girl I once considered my best friend.

"It was the night of Nadia's party, you weren't invited. M-my parents were arguing and I needed something to get it off my mind. Hayden said he could help." her eyes were as red as fire. 

"I think you should leave" I say boldly. I'm about to cry, I don't want her to see this weak side of me.

"Mackenzie let me explain." 

"I said that I think you should leave."

"I'm so sorry." she says reaching in for a hug. I reject it.

"Sometimes sorry isn't enough. I had to learn that the hard way."

"What do you mean Mackenzie?" she says as she gets up off the couch

"Just please leave" I beg

"But-"

"JUST LEAVE!" I say raising my voice and getting off of the couch.

"You know what Lauren? Even though we were in a big argument. I still had respect for you, I still trusted you. You broke that trust and it'll be damn hard to get it back."

"I'm so sorry." she says one more time as she goes for the door.

"You really should be" I say as I feel tears coming down. She opens the door and heads out.

I've lost too many people. Far too many. 

Maybe it's not even their fault. Maybe I'm the one pushing them away. It doesn't matter anyway because people always leave.

Lauren's POV

I walk out of Mackenzie's house feeling like shit. I know I just lost one of the best person that I've ever grew a connection with. I lost the person I could depend on the most. Just because of a stupid guy, a guy who doesn't even care about me. A guy who I don't even like. A guy who is a total asshole

But I'm just as wrong as he is. Maybe worse, I cheated with my ex bestfriends boyfriend. 

She hates me. But I don't blame her.

I get home and realize it's starting to rain. I open the door and hear the yelling.

My parents I automatically think. 

"Well you shouldn't of fucking did that Dale!" My mother shouts.

"Meredith, I'm sorry." my dad tries to explain.

"Sorry is never enough." My mother says. Almost saying the exact same words Mackenzie did.

My dad probably cheated on my mom. I have to tell Johnny. I walk in past the entry way and into the kitchen. My parents don't even realize me. They're too busy arguing. In some ways, this is kind of like Mackenzie and I's argument. I now feel even more sympathy for Mackenzie. Because all I want to do is punch my dad and tell him how wrong he is. But that'd be hypocritical, I'm just as wrong as my dad.

I walk up the stairs and hear something from Johnny's room.

"But I can hear it, I can hear the way you're breathing." I hear him sing while also playing the guitar. Johnny actually does have a really nice voice. Too bad for me, I didn't get any musical genes. I sound like a dying cow trying to sing. I keep listening while my ear is against the door, I'm intrigued by his voice

"But now you're gone, when you're gone I see you all the time on my timeline until you show up it happens every time. You keep telling me you're thinking about me, boo. You say you miss me just to hear I miss you too." I hear him stop. 

Wait a second. He wrote this song, I've never heard it. Replaying the lyrics in my head. I think of Mackenzie. Mackenzie. He had to obviously write it about Mackenzie. 

I knock on the door.

"Come in" Johnny says, his voice is barely audible. He definitely sings louder than he talks.

I walk in, the first thing he says is "What happened to you?"

I quickly check into his mirror that he has in his room. I really do look like a mess. My eyes are puffy. My hair is everywhere. I look like a complete mess.

"Stuff" I mutter. He just nods slowly. 

"Enough about me. I heard the song you're writing. It sounds really good."

"Oh stop. You don't have to lie." 

"I'm not lying" I answer truthfully. It really does sound good.

"the real reason I'm in here though is because I think Dad cheated on mom. I heard them arguing and now I'm just worried they're gonna get a divorce. What will we do Johnny?" I speak, starting to sob. 

He gets up from sitting down and puts his guitar on his bed. He comes up and hugs me.

"Hey, we will always stick together Lauren." 

"I hope" I break the hug.

"I think I'm going to take a nap. It's been a really long day for me" Part of that was true. It has been a really long day but I'm not going to nap. I'm going to cry until I have no tears left to cry.

"Okay" he replies and I go to leave and shut his door.

I go into my room and plop onto my bed.

Today has been one of the worst days of  my life

OOF JUICY.. Okay I get it I'm cringey. ANYWAYS, Now you know why Lauren and Hayden were talking a lot. Are you happy that I double updated? Also, the song up above is the song Johnny was writing in this chapter. It is a song by him and is honestly my favorite of his. Anyways. gotta go! Love ya